Sunday, December 30, 2007

For my hubby..he knows its true :)

Woman Vs Man
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Traci this is for you!

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Reflection time

Well with the new year comming I thought I would take some time to reflect on this past year.

Our family lkjjkll;lkj'a

ManI like to BS alot. lol OK so for real I am just sad that I am not near my best friends. ANd knowing that we had a small chance to go down there and we did not do it kinda makes me sad. But at the same time Aaron is making more money and we have developed some good friends here.

We have stopped going to church. I just do not feel like we belong there anymore. I believe in everything the church stands for and all but I just don't feel like I fit into our ward. Even Aaron feels that same way. That is unfortunatly why Kayla has not gotten baptised yet. We just haven't been connected to anyone there and so us not going made it hard to arrange her baptism. I told our families that is was because of the weather and how busy we are but that is only a small part.

We told our girls we woud go today but I still don't feel like going. I don't really know what to do to feel like I want to go either.

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Christmas was really great!

Well I can not show you photos just yet but I will soon.

We went up to my parents on christmas eve. It was nice to see them. They got the girls these cute books with thier names writen into the story. I can not wait to read 'em to them. They also got to sled for a bit in the snow. They had great fun. Then we had dinner with them and headed off to see my sister Naomi.

Naomi has yet another new boyfriend, he seems really nice though. Anyway we gave everyone a picture of the girls that was sooooo cute. But I had left her gift up and my parents incase we did not see her. So I felt bed when she gave me my gift (but only a little) lol. She got me some bath stuff and her boyfriend gave us the New Transformers movie. That was totally awesome of him. Then off to my in-laws. Busy night lol.

We spent the night at my in-laws. The girls were very excited to see them. Infact all day they asked when we were going to get thier. lol. SO we put the girls to bed and put out the pluthera of gifts under the tree.

When the girls woke up they were soo excited tosee all the gifts. We were going to start right away in opening but the girls were HUNGRY!!. LOL so after some breakfast we started opening presents. Cherise totally dove right into getting presents and tearing them open. It was caous for a little while but we resolved it pretty quick. The girls got so many great things to keep them entertained.

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Ohh sooo ridiculas and funny

OK we have some pretty imature downstairs neighbors. For the past several minths we have been dealing with their load music after the girls go to bed. We were first asking them nicely to turn it down until the last time when we asked the guys slammed the door in Aaron's face. SO then we decided to just call the police. We have had to call them about 4 times now. One time was 2 am when I had a child throwing up and really sick.

Well on friday thier music was on sooo laud that it was shaking the whole dang house so we called the police even though it was only 9:30 pm. Well they got a second ticket for noise and one of the guys that lives there got taken to jail because he had a warrant.

When the police left one of the guys down stairs came up and banged on our door. Aaron answered it and the guys starts going off on why we keep calling the police instead of just asking them to turn it down. Then he says that WE have cost them $600 in fines so far. And he had to point out that it wasn't even 10 pm. And Aaron tells them well keep your music down and this won't keep happening and points out that we have children trying to sleep. Well they guys still argues that we can just tell them to turn it down and that they will keep it down but that they can hear our children running around up here. OHH it was a good thing for him that i was in pajamas cause I wold have come after him for that. lol. Well what ever aaron says we will try to keep the kids quieter (UGH!) and the guy goes.

SO we get a call from an officer after that and he is warning us about what happened to them and to watch out for them to retaliate agienst us for all of this. OK so we will becareful.

OHH then they show thier true imaturaty. We have the police show up her the next after noon at around 12 . And they say they were called out for a noise complaint saying there were loud banking and stuff happening. Ahh Man! OK so I explain to them that it was our down stairs neighbors being retards because we called the police on them for noise. The noise they are hearing are my children just being kids and playing. I told them that they are trying to retaliate agienst us because they got fines and thier buddy went to jail for his warrent. They agreeed that this is stupid. They saw my girls and totally seem to understand what was going on. I even told them how they guys downstairs demanded we just tell them when thier music is too loud and i told him we started out politely asking them to turn it down and got a bad response and that this has been going on long enough that they should know by now where to keep thier music at. Plus We are not thier parents and should not have to control them. lol the policemen totally agreed with that one. Dang I have enough kids to worry about I do not need to worry about some stupid college students.

ok there it is. I don't know what will happen next but it will be intresting to find out.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

If you haven't done this yet and are reading it: Tag you are it! :-)

1) Egg Nog or Hot Chocolate? Well man thats a hard abotu some hot chocolate with a little egg nog. YUMM!!

2) Do you wrap your presents or not? Wrap..I am pretty OCD about that one. They have to be perfect

3) Colored lights or white? well this yea i have collered and last year I had colored and the year beore I had i sound soo racist lol.
4) Do you hang mistletoe? NO never have

5) When do you put up your decorations? Well this year I put them up the day before Thanksgiving but normally I do it the day after

6) What is your favorite holiday dish? Well I would have to say the sweet potatos that Karen makes are my new favorite

7) Favorite memory as a child? playing a scavenger hunt for our biggest present from Santa

8) When and how did you learn about Santa? I walked out into the livingroom and caught my family wrapping presents then the next morning found those presents under the tree addressed From Santa. I was 12.

9) Do you open a gift on Christmas Eve? Growing up? NO but i do let my kids open one and it is always pajamas.

10) How do you decorate your tree? well normally its set it up, then lights and garland and then let the kids loose with the ornaments of thier choosing. This year I did a theme of black red and white, with ribbons, and only certian kinds of ornaments,

11) it or dread it? I like looking at it and watching my kids play in it but I do not like being in it or driving in it.

12) Can you ice skate? yes..kinda

13) Do you remember your favorite gift? yes actually it was a little brown teddy bear that smelled soo good. It got stolen somehow and sometimes I wish I still had it.

14) What is the most important part of the holidays? Well in top of remembering Christ and all he gave for us, I say the giving. I love giving gifts.

15) Favorite holiday dessert? Pumpkin pie

16) Favorite tradition? Well we just started one this year but I am certian it will be my all time favorite. We are doing the 12 days of christmas Each night the girls and i gather around a read a christmas story and then they get to open a small gift (not one of thier christmas presents though:)

17) Favorite Christmas Carol? Silent NIght

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Ok so this is sooo crazy. We are doing a christmas program for the preschool and it has potential to be a great one. But Jessie is making it so complicated and Lnzie is not pulling her weight and I feel like I do not even really know what is going on.

I just came home from a practice session at the school and i totally feel like crying. Its crazy. The kids are wound up. Jessie is crabby and I am lost. lol

Well it will be great I hope. I just have to get the skirts all done
This is my tree this year. I love it. I can not believe I waited this long to have a themed tree. lol

Thursday, November 29, 2007

my girls

oh yea everyone I got my new air dryer. lol the world is right agian. :)


Let others know a little more about yourself, repost this as your name followed by "ology."

What is your favorite fast food restaurant?
A. Taco Time (Traci I am there with you) They have the best ranch ever lol

Q. What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?
A: well the list is a bit long lol. Rach wheat thins with cheese, Ham, Cottage cheese, and popcorn

Q.What are your pizza toppings of choice?


Q. What is currently on your computer wall paper?
A: A picture of Maddys oh so cute face.

Q. How many televisions are in your house?
A: One--for now. Adding one more at christmas


Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
A. Right handed.

Q. When was the last time you had a cavity?
A. probably need another visit real soon :)

Q. Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
A. almost, i got hit in the head with a wooden swing in Highschool. Did not pass out but I was dang close to it.


Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
A. No

Q. What color do you think looks best on you?
A. red, white, black and blue

Q. Have you ever saved someone's life?
A. no

Q. Has someone ever saved yours?
A. well there was the time when Jeremy made me realize that I was heading down a nasty spiral of emotions. That to me was life saving.


Q: What is in your left pocket?
A:Nightgown--no pockets

Q: Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good movie?
A. ummm....DUH

Q. Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house?
A: carpet

Q: Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
A: I see the cops all the time since Aaron is in real tight with them (in a good way)

Q: What do you want to be when you grow up?
A: Exactly what I am doing right now, Just trying to make life a bit better for others


Q: Last person who called you?
A: My friend Amanda

Q: Person you hugged?
A: Cherise--Always loves hugs


Q: Number?
A: 3--I don't know just seems that good things come to me in 3's

Q: Season?
A: Spring--when its in the 70's with a light breeze

Q: Mood?
A: satisfied (just finished dinner)and happy

Q: Listening to?
A: Aaron's movie

Q: Watching?
A: The screen


Q: First place you went this morning?
A: To the preschool

Q: What can you not wait to do?
A: have Christmas--This yea I am just sooo excited.

Q: What's the last movie you saw?
A: Because I said so--My new favorite!!

Q: Do you smile often?
A: Ummmmm...DUH! I am a happy person by nature. The only times I do not smile is those few special days of the month

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Trivial to some but not me

Darn it my hair dryer broke.

It has been so dang cold outside and neither me or my daughters should be going out with wet hair. My hair now is going on its 3rd day being straight because that is the only way i can do it in the morning and not have it wet when I leave. I have not washed it since monday. Ugh. And I have to bathe the girls at night which is not the best either because it looks like poo the next morning. But all is not lost I will be getting paid next week and I think I will have enough to get another one even if its a cheap one for now.

Side note, I love my hair straight but the cut I have I feel lays wierd but I am too cheap to go someplace nicer then the school to get it how I want it. lol Oh well I think I will have to suck it up because I keep trying to fix it myself and it gets weirder and wierder. lol

Monday, November 12, 2007

Yet another update !! :)

It has been a while agian. And there is soo much i want to talk about but i am soo tired I know that i won't get it all out right now. So I will do the best i can.

First and the most important and best news we have gotten in a long time is that Aaron got a huge raise from his boss at work. he got a whol 1.50. That has been a long time comming indeed. It has eased our minds greatly. Plus it came at a great time, not only just before Thanksgiving and Christmas but also becuase my hours are getting greatly reduced at the preschool due to a huge drop in enrollment.

I am down to working only 20 hours a week. It is 7:30-11:30 now. I am actually ok with that since its going to be a temperary change. Because I need to get stuff taken care of at home. Like I am making Kayla a quilt for this christmas and I want it to be a suprise. SO with the extra time i will have i think I will beable to accomplish that. I am very excited about it.

Cherise is finally seeing a cou8ncilor. I had a meeting with her teacher, school councilor, preinciple and school nurse. And they hjave all the same worries i do and that have said that they are going to help as much as possible and so far they seem to be doing so. BUt her councilor is soo nice. I don't know much of what she is doing now except she is taking lots of tests. I filled out dozens of suveys and gave out soo many for others to fill out as well. But I know that we are going in a good direction now. And I think we will se some vast inmproment soon.

Kayla is also seein her own councilor, but hers is for possible depression. Ithink I might be over reacting but you never know. And with me having deppression it is not such a far stretch to think she might. Her councilor is nice and i know Kayla will benifit from it.

Maddy is doing great. She is as fiesty as ever and lets you know it all the time. She is having some issues staying on her feet when running and playing but not enough yet for me to worry. lol. But she is such a mommies girl and with my lighter schedule we will be spending even more time together.

oh and me. I am doing pretty good. Right this moment i have a cold but that happens. I started a life style change eating habit. I am counting my calories and fiber and fat. I log everything down each day and am trying to stay under a certian amount. So far I am doing pretty good with that. i have had some high nights but for the most part I stay under my goal. and In the process I have lost 2 pounds in a week. oh and I don't feel like I am starving becasue I eat high fiber foods, lots of fruits and veggies and drink plenty of water.

Well that is really all I can think of right now to say. I will try to get back on her as soon as possible.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

halloween is comming

The air is colder. The wind is picking up. And the kids are getting excited abotu being able to dress up and go get candy.

Kayla is going as Hannah Montana
Cherise is going as a Fairy Princess Ballerina
Maddy is going as a sparkly princess Kitty

I am still trying to come up with a fun costume for me. So far I have a blond wig LOL. I did find a neat costume at Joanns today as a witch, but its $50.00. I have a hard time spending that much on a costume for me. But if it is still there on the 25th then I could get it for 50% off and that makes it more reasonable.

Aaron is dragging his feet abotu getting dressed up lol BUt I will have him dressed up by the time it is needed. BWHAAAAAA

Anyway things are kind of nuts and hectic but we are surviving.

Thursday, October 04, 2007

Sunday, September 23, 2007

My how things change LOL

Well we will start by saying that we are not moving to Utah for now. It just is not the time for us. We still have things to accomplish here.

Things are going great at the preschool. I am working less hours but bringing home more money then before so that is just great.

The kids started school and my free time is hard for me to except but welcome to take lol. I know that probably is confusing but its like this. I have been workiing all day shifts for wow soooo long at the preschool that by letting me out t now 1:30 is taking me some time to get used to. If I am not hanging out still at the preschool I am laying on my couch at home. lol But I will say this, My hoiuse is very clean and has stayed clean for a time now. And that is awesome.

SO Kayla is turning 8 on next tuesday. We are so excited for her birthday. She gets to have a friend party this saturday and she can no be more excited. She is haveing a Hanna montana theme lol. Anyway I am excited because she gets baptised next month. We do not know when exactly yet but we will soon I am sure.

oh yea I am getting her a hampster and making her a big quilt for her birthday so I am very excited about that too.

Aaron started playing soft ball on Jessies team. He is having a ton of fun so far. He is planning on trying out for the WSP agian. I am really trying to encourage him in this.

Well that is my update for now
talk to you all later

Monday, August 06, 2007

My craft bisness

Ok I was asked by Jeremy to be specific about my crafting bisness so I think I will do that here.

First I will start by making sure I have a room where I can keep and work on all my crafts. It will have wall to wall tables and shelves. Every kind of storage available to store my stock. It needs to have bead drawers and easel, sewing machine, and drawers for all supplies. I can envision the room in my mind.

Then I want to take some classes to better develop my drawing and painting, sewing, and I want to dabble in photography also.

So my idea is to go crazy with making crafts that people will purchase. I know that jewelry is a big one. I will do reasearch to find things that intrest people and start there.

I would also like ot create a preschool craft book. In that area I would enlist Jessie to help with the educational aspect of it.

Then I want to start traveling to fairs and craft shows to sell my stuff. I also would like to open a shop that is devoted to hand made crafts. The shop would either be in my home or close to it.

Sunday, July 29, 2007

i am reading conversations between two of the people that have made "The Secret" a success and I had an enlightening moment. I have always asked myself "What is wrong with me?" or "Why can't I acconmplish this?" and instead I should be asking, "What is right with me?" and "How can I accomplish this?"

It is just awesome what you can learn when you let your mind stay open to what is around you.

Quote of My Day

Your brain can be directed and
you can direct it by the questions
you ask. Most people ask these
negative questions that send
them down the sewer.

~*~My Soon To Be Reality~*~

While on the plane from Utah I had lots of time to review what I wanted for my family, home, and career. I got a notebook from Kelli to hold all of my wants. I am goingot share these.

*~^*^~*My Family*~^*^~*

  • Play more games together (more time with each other)
  • Indulge in each others intrests
  • Plan family vacations
  • School-more intrest & support
  • Understand what it took to get here
  • Be more active at church

~`*^^*~`My Career`~*^^*`~

  • Craft, paint, draw, sew, bead, scrapbook, photography
  • Room for all my needs
  • Work on making items while children are at school
  • On property or in house shop for selling items year round
  • During long school breaks and summer vacation travel to fairs to sell
  • Take art, sewing and photography classes

*^~~^*Our Home*^~~^*

  • 6 bedrooms
  • Open basement
  • Breakfast nook
  • Bay windows with sitting bench
  • 4 bathrooms
  • Laundry room
  • Mud room
  • 2 garage
  • Large flat back yard
  • Brick BB-Q
  • Out door in ground pool
**~^~**My Ideas**~^~**
  • Become a partner with Jessie in the preschool
  • Have Dad make wooden kitchen play things for the girls

So this is my vision and my soon to be reality!!

*`^~^`*My Quest*`^~^`*

I have entered into a quest. It is a quest to make things better for my family. We have thought about this quest and have entered it a few times with real determination. Up until now we have failed. But this time our quest will succeed!!

So why am I so confidant and assured of myself for this time when every other time we try we fail. It is really quite simple really. I have made it happen in my head. I can seemy family in our house with the things that we have struggled so hard to attain. I see Aaron with his job that he loves to do and is making the money we have always needed. I can see myself doing the things that I want too.

I am excerting my faith in the Lord and my understanding that he wants us to be happy. My faith has always been thier but so has my doubt. So I am not allowing the doubt to enter in to this quest. This will happen. How it will happen I do not know exactly, neither do I know when. But all I do need to know is that it will.

Saturday, July 28, 2007


So I have been having issues with Cherise for such a long time. We have talked soo much about what may be the cause of how she is.
Well I think we may know some of her problem. Jessie said to look in to the symptoms for Asperger's syndrome. I have looked up somethings and I think we may be on to something here. Here are the symptoms that I know she has.

Compared with classic autism, children with Asperger's Syndrome usually don't show any signs of major cognitive difficulties — their IQ falls in the normal or even superior range—and they exhibit few, if any, delays in speaking. They also generally hit most of their milestones within reasonable time periods. Because of this, some describe children with this condition as “high-functioning” or as having a “mild” form of autism, at least compared to others on the spectrum. To many, they may seem just like other children but not quite — socially awkward in a manner that's not easily understood.

Be preoccupied with only one or few interests, which he or she may be very knowledgeable about. Many children with Asperger's syndrome are overly interested in parts of a whole or in unusual activities, such as doing intricate jigsaw puzzles, designing houses, drawing highly detailed scenes, or astronomy.2

Talk a lot, usually about a favorite subject. One-sided conversations are common. Internal thoughts are often verbalized

Have heightened sensitivity and become overstimulated by loud noises, lights, or strong tastes or textures.

Socially inappropriate behavior


My goal for this next week is to get her in somewhere to get tested and to see if we can help her.

Monday, July 23, 2007

The Secret

So, by now you know that the law of attraction is a Great Secret of Life.

What is the law of attraction? Simply put, the law of attraction states that “Like attracts like.” What this universal law tells you about your own life is that the thoughts you think, feelings you feel, words you say, and actions you take all consist of energy that attracts to it more of its own kind. That is, negative energies attract negative energies, and positive energies attract positive energies.

Yet most of us cannot control how we think, feel and behave no matter how hard we try.

A less known yet equally important law is the "Law of Surrender" - "The Law of Letting Go." When you let go of the old patterns of thinking, feeling and behaving you make room and free up the energy required to attract all that your heart desires.

There is a simple and effective way to take charge of the law of attraction and easily let go of the old and hold in mind what you want and attract it to you. This technique is used by over one-third of the teachers in The Secret and many of them believe The Sedona Method is the secret to mastering The Secret.

Letting go of the old

Because of the momentum of your habitual ways of thinking, feeling and behaving, you may often feel like you are trying to move forward with a rubber band around your waist. So the closer you get to attracting what you want into your life, the pull of your old thinking is so strong, you seem to snap back into your old patterns.

These patterns are stealing your energy. Every negative pattern you are holding onto from the past is robbing you of the energy that you could be using to create all that you choose. When you let go of these negative patterns you can then channel this energy into your worthy goals and intentions.

If you truly have over 50,000 thoughts a day, that’s a lot of thoughts to try to control and make positive. Yet if you “wake up on the wrong side of the bed,” you can have the same feeling the whole day coloring every thought. So it is much more effective to master your emotions than simply trying to control your thoughts.

You are creating the sum total of your thinking and feeling about any particular topic all the time, but most of thinking and feeling is below your conscious awareness in your subconscious. In fact, 94-96% of your actions are motivated by the thoughts and feelings that are outside of your conscious awareness and control. When you let go of your conscious feelings using The Sedona Method, you empty your subconscious and you take back your control.

So, how do you use the law of attraction in your life to produce the results you want?

Letting go of your thoughts and feelings actually dissolves the negative emotional charge and allows you to easily feel the natural feelings of joy, peace, happiness, wealth, and love that are your true nature. You can let go of anything negative and uncover the positive that is natural in each and every one of us at our core. This will quickly and dramatically shift your sum total thinking and feeling about your goals and dreams and allow you to put the law of attraction into full effect in your life.
No doubt about it, letting go is the secret to mastering The Secret.

Remember, to create what you want it is important to feel that you already have what you want and not just think it. There is no more effective way to let go of your negative emotions and feel the positive outcome of your goals than with The Sedona Method.

The Sedona Method is a simple, powerful, easy-to-learn technique that shows you how to access your natural ability to let go of any unwanted feeling or thought right in the moment. It has been practiced by hundreds of thousands of people worldwide since 1974, including over one-third of the teachers in The Secret. It is the key to unlocking your unlimited potential to have, be or do whatever you desire to attract into your life.

Three Other Powerful Ways to Create All You Desire When Combined with The Law of Attraction and The Sedona Method
Get into Action: If you simply fantasize about how great it is going to be to have what you want, but you don’t take action, you are engaging in "magical thinking." When you let go of fantasy and take action to achieve your goals, you deal with what is actually here now and take the appropriate actions to bring what you want to you. You also make yourself available to unexpected ways of attracting success.
Give Without Wanting Anything Back in Return: One of the most powerful actions you can take to create what you want in life is to give to others without wanting anything back in return. This opens your heart to your intuitive knowing and gratitude. When you give without strings attached, you are allowing your energy to flow—and it comes back to you many times over. By the law of attraction, giving to others attracts the energy of giving to you.
Follow Your Heart: There is a universal intelligence or knowingness in each and every one of us. When you are open to this intelligence of the heart, it guides you in the right direction to do what is best for you and those around you. Following this intuitive knowing attracts to you whatever you need as you need it. You find yourself having, being and doing whatever is right for you in the moment for your highest good.
Now you know the secret to mastering The Secret. Practice this along with The Secret and you’ll uncover that which mankind has sought since the dawn of time—and the Great Secret of the Ages will truly be yours.

The latest

This are going great. I went to Utah for Traci's wedding. That was such a great thing. I was glad to beable to go there. I will talk about that later though.

While I was waiting for traci and Josh to come out of the temple I have a long talk with Kelli's husband Jeremy. He talked about how if you want something all you need to do is to remain positive about getting it and be willing to work hard for it and you can have it. I totally got everything he was talking about. And from that talk I decided that we really needed to move to Utah.

so with that desition made I started thinking of how we could accomplish this. I told Jeremy that I could send Aaron up here to find a place to live and start at a job till he had enough saved to move us up there.

Jeremy talked about making possibilities a reality. He said I have to be patient. Its hard but i am. But in the mean time i ma visualizing my new life in Utah with all my dearest friends around. being able to do as I want. Provide a more comfortable enviroment for my family and have the resources to help others too.

Friday, July 06, 2007

My new favorite thing

Ok so one of the new girls at the preschool is a singer. We all knew that at the school. BUt i did not realize that she is well known around this area. She has her own web site and a cd release last year and she performs all over this area. She sings jazz and from what I have heard sounds great.

Check out her website. She is such a great person and an awsome singer.
Man i am finding it more and more difficult ot get on her and share lately. Its just sooo crazy with my girls and work and all that entales.

We have been trying to get our house more organized so we appreciate it better. It is driving us crazy to have been in this place for so long i think. And its only been almost 2 years lol. But that is just how we are.

We still would like ot move to a place with a yard so the girls are not trapped in the house on nights and weekends but we are just not at a status to acomplish that right now.

My dearest friends in Utah want us to move down there and I really do want to be close to them I am just not sure that I want ot live down there. It would be far from my family and it gets such extreme weather for me. Plus with all the crap that Jessie is going through I feel like i need to be with her right now. So Aaron has been talking about moving down thier on his own to try out this job to see if he can find us a good place to live and see if the money would be worth it. I think I would be ok with him going for a while but i know I would end up emotionally unstable from it too. But we shall see what happens I guess.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Well things at the preschool are crazy as always but now we have an even crazier twist. The partnership between my bosses is going south. I can not give any details yet but I will as soon as I can. I just know that in the next few months I will either be working souly for Jess or I won't have a job but I don't know yet which.


SO on to other things. I had a chance to go to Ashley's wedding this last Saturday. And I think the best part for me was seeing Kelli and Traci. It was really great. I don't feel like I got to see Kelli a whole lot but I will be making up for that in a few weeks when I go to Traci's wedding in July. So its all good. But I did make a difficult thing for Traci better. But over all the event seemed to go great and everyone had a good time. We were exhausted the next day and almost did not get anything done till 4 in the afternoon when I finally started some laundry.

Monday, June 04, 2007

OMG!! some people!!!

ok so I wanted to tell you a story about something that happened to me a few days ago.

I was out walking my dog and a friends dog and Maddy was with me. A gold car pulls up next to me while I am reading my mail and my dog is taking a dump. SO this lady in the car rolls down her window and starts talking to me about how people are just letting thier dogs take a sh*% any where they want.

I told her yea I know its gross and proceeded to read my mail. And then she says that she is going to watch me pick up my dogs poop. I was soo shocked I could not say anything for a bit and then said your going to watch me?!?!. She said yea I want to make sure you pick it up . I am like ummm well I will and I don't think I need you to watch. She says pick it up or I will call the police.

WHAT!?!?!? so I pick it up while I am complaining to her about how she is being rude and unnecisary and after I get it all up I tell her that she better not bother me agian or I was going to call the police on her and I walked away.

I was sooo mad becuase she was swearing in front of maddy and then assumed that I don't pick up my dogs poop. Man some people.

Friday, June 01, 2007

The graduation and possible ramblings lol

OK so the graduation was great. It seemed that the parents who came really enjoyed it. I hope I am still around to get a chance to do it agian.

now the ramblings.

It has been a tough week with all the prep for getting this graduation done with. The stress has been pretty high. But a few things have helped here. Aaron and I decided not to move. MOstly because we lost the chance at this great house, but also because we can't handle the complications that keep arising to move. SO for now we are staying in this place. But we do have a great home for our dog Crissy. My director Jessie is going to take her after she moves to her house this month. So I am happy about that. Oh and we are hoping to keep Jack the cat but that depends on wether our landlord agrees to that or not. He does not know we have him right now. but it will be nice to have everything on the up and up at last lol. Well it is time for me to conquer Small world with my awesomeness. I am the boss agian for the day. lol.

Monday, May 21, 2007

My graduation speach

OK so the preschool is having a graduation on the 30th of May. I am speaking before my kids graduate. I thought I would share my speach with you.

When you see bubble what to you think of? Maybe a bubble bath after a hard day, or dishes that need to be washed, maybe even childhood memories. When a child sees bubbles they think of faries flying around the forest,babies that need pretecting, bees needing to be swatted, and other fun ways to pop them. When I was watching these children as they chased the bubbles around the play ground I realized that they are bubbles. I will tell you about these bubbles.

They are bubbles of energy. It seems never ending. Especially on day when mine gives out sooner then I would have liked.

They are bubbles of curiosity. In their mind no place is off limits and every discovery leads them to thier favorite question...WHY??

THey are bubbles of obedience. We see they listen to us by the way they remind thier friends of the school rules.

They are bubbles of imagination. In case you did not know, any object can be made into a hammer, even a Barbie.

They are bubbles of excitement. This is why they can't help but run everywhere, even after many friendly reminders to walk.

They are bubbles of expression. The shouts of joy can be heard for miles when they are told that it is time to go outside to play.

They are bubbles of love. No matter what they are doing they are never to busy to give or recieve a hug.
Finally they are bubbles of enrichment. Thier energy, curiosity, imagination, excitement, expression, and love make every single one of them the biggest most beautiful bubble of all.

Now this is not the final draft. I still have some tenses to fix and i am rewording some but it took me forever to take home even a rough copy to post on here lol. SO you will get the jist of my speach and hopefully it all goes well on graduation day.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

my troubles at work

OK so I know i have complained alot about the preschool I work at. And I was so stressed out by how much they used me on tuesday that they sent me home and I did depression shopping...never good. But wednesday morning I was told by Jesse that she wanted to have a talk with me and so we went for a walk. It was awesome really. She said they felt they have given me too much to be incharge of and it has not brought the best out of me. She wants the old me back. The one who was excited abotu teaching and doing crafts with the kids and such. So they did take me off salary which sucks but they will not charge me for child care during christmas break and such. And they are going to help me get back on government assistance by providing me with a lower pay stub or something so that we are just under the amount we can make and qualify. It was a great talk and i am glad I had it. I still wish i was making more but I know that they want to pay me more also. So things are starting to look up now and hopefully will stay that way.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

The best thing my mom could say

I was talking to my mom yesterday morning and she was saying how she read my post about family and how they never really know you. She said that is sooo true because she has noticed how much stronger and more sure of myself I am since I lived with them. And it is true I have found alot of myself in the past year. Its really nice ot have confidence in situations that in the past I totally lacked. Now if I can just gain the confidence in myself to approach my bosses abtou needing more money and it being unfair to charge me for my own childcare.

A friend made this point about me p aying for child care while working at a place my children attened: "It is like someone making some food for you and telling you you have to eat it and that you have to pay them too. " Just does not make any sence. And all the child care centers here in my town do not charge thier employees for thier children comming.

So my options are to just stick it out and hope it gets better, tell them they need to give me a raise and that I won't stand for it anymore, or quit and go to another daycare where I can make as much as I am now and work more then helf the amount I am now.

Its going to be an intresting ride follks, Hold on!!!

Thursday, May 10, 2007

I had a bad day

Well ofcourse its going to happen to everyone sometime.

Yesterday at the preschool it was sooo stressful because of our numbers that I totally lost it.

I feel like I should not be a child care provider this week. That last scentence makes me actually laugh. Every mom and dad out there I am sure has felt that way about thier children. BUt here I am with my own kids and I can't stand the way I treated other peoples kids yesterday.

My poor girls are suffering, I feel, because of my job. I mean yes, they get to have fun playing at the preschool and stuff but when we get home I feel like I just don't want them to excist. I am tired of dealing with all children and I take it out on them.

I know that this current emotional state I am in is a temperary one and that once i am more regulated I will have a better day but I still feel I will be horrible for my girls. Well I guess this is something to work on now.

Monday, May 07, 2007

forever running in circles
the destination unknown.
everyone wondering
which way I will choose.
Uncertiantly clouds the way
I need to see a light.

There is a glimmer
high in the sky
its hard to see
the clouds part
I see it clear
I will follow the light.

Sunday, May 06, 2007

I found this on Post Secret. It goes out to you. You know who you are. :))


Wow this is kind of in addition to my new fashion. As most of you know I have gotten into making necklaces and stuff. Well I really got heavily into it because my mom wanted a neclace for her horse as a training device. Then I realized how much fun it was comming up with designs. So I made a ton. I even tried selling them on Ebay. And while I sold some I did not make enough to feel like it was worth keeping up. So I stopped making necklaces for quite while.

Then I was watching a show of mine and saw this 3 stran silver necklace one of the actresses was wearing and fell in love with it. Well I realized that I could make that easy. So it got me to go out and look at the beads and such and I started making necklaces that went with my new wardrobe. They were great and inspiring. And now I have soooooo many necklaces lining my bathroom wall that I could almost wear one each day for a month and not wear one twice.

Its Crazy!!!.

I would really like to design some and try selling them agian but I struggle with that idea because it takes sooo much effort to sell items like this. Well it is something I will have to continue to ponder as time goes by.

But I really do enjoy making these and I will try and get my scanner set up today so I can post my favorites and such on here.

***Dang Camera broke***

Thursday, May 03, 2007


I am suppost to go to ashleys shower next week not entirely sure I really want to but i probably will. Its just that I am having a hard time with that side of the famil right now. The whole wedding bisness is driving me nuts. It started with Ashley wanting me to make brides maid dresses to making the girls dresses and then with me going to Traci's wedding. And you just know that they talk about you when you don't flow like they were hoping you would and i know I should not care about talk but I do. I vented to Jesse, my boss, about it yesterday. She said family is over rated lol. it is sooo true because you find that your friends, true friends, become closer to you then you family.

Kelli says
"many times family doesn't even know the real you even though they think they do because they are "family""

This was my conversation with Kelli this morning. Now I love my family. Yes they can be hard to understand sometimes but I believe that is true with most. But when you marry into a family it can either be really hard to understand or easy. Some have it worse then most. I definatly dso not have it bad just rough at times.

Pretty in pink

I just painted my toe nails a metallic hot pink and I love it. I have become way more bold in my fassion. ANd not just nail color. I bought a pair of cargo, light olive green capris. LOL I never get things like that. Everyone at work even parents of the kids agrees that I have lost weight and dress with style. These are all things that I have wanted to hear for soooooo long and just have not. Not that my style was horrible just affordable and comfortable to a fault. But not I feel comfortable and have definatly less i feel fat days then I usually do. I feel good!!

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Virginia Tech. tragedy

OK so this tragedy is the closest I have ever come to having a friend or relative involved. Our landlord works at this school and luckly for him and his family was in a different part of the school that day. We emailed him and told him our concern of him being in that part of the school and he was really greatful that we cared. I am glad that he knows that we are caring people because they are really great people. I hope that I continue in my life of small incidents because the thoguht of having a loved one in a tragedy like that scared the heck out of me.

Monday, April 02, 2007


It just doesn't make sense
We try and try
There are so many crying
We all know why
The solution is there
We don't like to see it
Who will step up?
We want to but...
Then who will help us.

Saturday, March 31, 2007

Change is comming just don't know when.

Well because we got a dog (yes a dog lol) we have decided that we want to get into a house. Now we are no where near the financial status to buy so we have looked to rent. We found a house out side of town that is ok. I stress ok because it is not perfect like the place we are in now was when we moved here. It is a bit cheaper in rent, has a yard. That is where for me the good things end. There is a big commute everyday, we are farther from friends and stores, there is a huge security deposit for our animals, the "yard" right now is mostly mud, and this place only has one bathroom. Oh and the big thing is that I was told by friends who I trust that the school system out there is not good at all.

So why have we not just said no to this place yet? Aaron is stuck soo much on the idea of having a house and a yard, that now that we have the chance to get into one all he can see is the good stuff and is ignoring the bad. And for me the bad is big this time.

My friends have told me to hold off renting this place and wait for summer and look for houses to rent then. There are more options then. And I like that idea alot.

So I am on a crusade to convince Aaron that this house is not the place to be right now.

Wish me luck!!!

Thursday, March 08, 2007

Well things are pretty much the same. My job is complicated, my kids are misbehaving and my husband is feeling alone. But I am trying as hard as I can to remain positive and remember that things do get better. You just never know when hehe. Well here is to hoping that things will get better soon.

I love all of my friends and I love my family and I love the Lord for giving them all to me.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

I am what you call "LOST"

The power inside me
I will never acheive
I can't see a way out
I don't have it right now
I feel tormented by the need to succed

Saturday, February 17, 2007

my family Maddy who is just sooooooo dang cute

me at the preschool in a skirt I made My new wedding ring from aaron.
these are just some pics that will have to serve as an up
date right now. I might beable to get on tomorrow and actually do more sharing but not right now.