OK just an update

Since I have uploaded a ton of pictures I thought I would give a breif update on how things are going for us.

Aaron has soo far lost 12 lbs in his quest to complete phase 2 of becomming a Washington State Trooper. I am soo proud of him. He has resisted so much temptation in food and not excersizing. He is getting more and more excited as the weight burns off.

I have also lost a ton of weight. I have gone down a full pant size. My mom gave me some old pants she had saved and all but one pair fit me. It was great. And I look forward to lossing more weight as the time goes on. More good news for me is that i was recently given a promotion at work. I am now a Supervisor. I got a raise and of course more responsibilities. I am now incharge of making sure all chores get done by me and the other two girls. The two girls answer directly to me when quesstions arise about daily things. And I am incharge of getting an infant class organized. Plus in another 6 months there is a chance I could be made Manager. So I am very excited.

The girls had a wonderful Christmas. They got alot of toys to entertain themselves with (thankfully for me). They also managed to get some new clothes which is nice as well. They got to see both Grandparents this year which is always a great thing for them. I am most excited for school to start back up myself. The 3 of them are climbing the walls. lol

We recently let Snowball adventure out of his cage and quickly discovered it was too soon for him. Not only did he start pooping all over (thankfully not peeing) but he also started to hump Snowflake with a passion, which made me realize that he is definatly not neutered. But Snowflake let him which I found rather disturbing. But then after a second try on Snowball's part Snowflake turned around and started to attack him. They did circles in the cage then took it out of the cage and Aaron and I had to break them up. Poor boys, both of them were breathing really hard and seemed sooo upset. Oh and how did the cat react to all of this. Well he sat there with a very confused look on his face not sure of what was going on or what to do. I am glad he chose to stay out of it though. He is one smart cat (sometimes). Well now Snowball will be a caged bunny for another month or two before we try that agian. Plus I am going to see if we can get him neutered before he comes out again.

Well thats it for now. I will update agian as soon as somethign worthy comes along LOL

Maddy and all her adorableness!!

OK so I am discovering every day more and more of Maddy's fun personality. She is just so full of life and discovery. She loves to see how far she can push your buttons and how much you are willing to love her. She was a real joy to watch this Christmas as she figured out what joy you can have when spending time with family and friends.

I can not wait to see what the future holds for this precious child of mine. But will the world be ready for her?? I am not sure. Maybe its a good thing that her cousin Gracie lives apart from her at this time. They are soo alike I think the world is NOT ready for the two of them to tackle it together. LOL

Tons of fun in the snow!!

THe day after Christmas we were up at my parents house. They had atleast a foot of snow there. So all of my girls plus Jeremy's fiances daughter went out and played in the snow with Daphne.

Girls wrestling with Grandpa Stenzel

On Christmas day the girls seemed to have a ton of energy and they took it out on Grandpa for a while. I decided to capture the moment.

Girls on the real Christmas Morning!!

THis is the girls before we headed out to the Stenzel's on Christmas morning.

(side note: Kayla's lips look pale because she got a new lipgloss and it is a pale pink and she continually applied it. LOL)

Cherise and her candy!!

Well my darling middle child is one strange duck sometimes. She decided this year with all of her candy to unwrap all the chocolate coins and other candies and line them up on the table. This is a pic of what she did. When asked why she did this she did not really know just wanted to. LOL

Christmas Morning 2006

OK so we woke up at 7 am that morning but it was not technically Christmas Morning. We had decided to do our Christmas morning on Christmas eve since we were traveling all day christmas and the day after. So here is what the tree looked like after Santa came and before the girls attacked it.





















Now I would love to show youthe pictures of the girls first reactions to the tree but in both pics cherise has no pants on so its a bit to indecent for the net.
But here are the girls attacking thier stockings. Maddy is very intreged with her decoration. lol















Here is Cherise showing off all the presents that Santa left for her.














Here is what Maddy got.














And the big winner would be Kayla this year wth by far the most gifts uner the tree. But whos counting. lol





















After opening all thier individual presents the girls worked together to open thier group gift.

Here Kayla knows what it is!!













ohh now theey all know. Se how excited they are about it.
















We got them a really cute doll house and then later they got alot of accesories from the grandparents.

Seeing Christmas lights

We went out to see the pretty lights people have on their houses and we found a park that was totally decked out not to far from here.

Here are some pics of the girls by the lights:

This is then engine of a train it is covered all over. The girls really enjoyed it. Maddy was being shy and did not want ot be in any of the pictures.


The Nativity.
This is a cute ginger bread house. The girls wanted to go inside. I really did not think that was a great idea as they would most likely end up knocking the whole thing down. lol

pics of our new bunny Snowball

He is so cut eI think and he loves to get loves. But Snowflake got very jealous of him and hissed at me and tried to bite me while I was holding him. THis will have to get corrected. BUt he now has his cage out in the house so he can get to know the other animals. and I hope soon we can start taking him out of the cage and let him wonder around.

New colors in the carpet!

Well I got off work early as it was my early day. After feeding the children lunch I took off the the computer room to pay bills and goof off on here. After abotu an hour of the kids being way to good Cherise comes running into the room yelling "Mom the couch is turning green. see my fingers are green!" SO I go rushing out there to see what she is talking about and there is Maddy with my box of food coloring and they are clearly empty and there is a giant green spot on my ottoman and some spots on the carpet. Needless to say she is in her room and I have spent the last half hour trying to get the color out. I got it out of the ottoman but th carpet needs help. So if you have any ideas on how to get food coloring out of carpet successfully please let me know. Thanks!!

***4 days till Christmas***

I know that I am crazy but so what!!

Yesterday we went to the human society togive them our Guinue Pig and found a Dwarf Bunny to replace her with. He is soooo cute. he is mostly white with black ears, nose and paws. he is as far as I can tell a Norwegian Dwarf. I do not know how old he is because he was just dropped off at the shelter. But he now has a new home with us. His name is Snowball because of how white he is. I will see if I can get a picture of him asap.

***8 days till Christmas***

My husband is going to be a state trooper!!!

He passed the first phase of the requirements and has 3 phases to go. Whe one we are most worried about is the one comming up in February. He has to have his weight down alot. So he has a Gym membership and is working out daily. I am soo incredably proud of him. And very excited for our possible future. It will be great for my hubby to finally have the job of his dream and making the income required to fully support our family. BUt I have faith in my hubby. I know he can do this. This is the closest he has ever been to his dream so I know he will not give up now. And i am going to ake sure he knows that i fully support him.

***14 days till Christmas***

The Preschool Christmas Play

Well last night was our big preschool Christmas play. It was a big success. I did not get any pictures. But what I say was really cute. All the kids did what they had to and i know the parents loved it. I received lots of praise for my set decorations. That was really nice. Well now I can focus on getting stuff for Christmas done. I found some really cute crafts that I want to get done for my family.

***17 Days till Christmas***

car problem update

It is done. It was cool that they were able to get it fixed while we were at work yesterday and it cost us $50.00 less then we thought it would. So that makes it even better. And today should be a good day. Especially since tomorrow is my day off. YEAH!!!

We cot our first Christmas card yesterday. It was a picture card form my hubby's sister and her hubby. It was cute. I have to find a place to put it. We normally do not get cards so it was nice but unexpected. lol Well off to work now.

***20 Days till Christmas***

SO one day feeling great the very next day the world crashes around me. Our car is now in the shop. And we are unsure how much its going to take to fix it this time. ANd my boss is freaking out because she had to open and I can not be there right now. I told her I am comming as soon as possible but its not good enough for her. I know that she has a hard time with her pregnancy and getting kids out the door and what not but she should understand car problems.

So Aaron has to get a service loaner and I am waiting for him to come back so that we can get to work. I do not understand why this happens to us in December of all the months. We are very strapped as it is and now we have to find money for this. its crazy.

I am feeling great!!

Finally I am starting to feel like I can accomplish anything agian. I think alot has to do with the fact that I finally got all the stuff for Christmas play all done!! YEA!!! And if the kids suck atleast I know that the set and props are awesom. lol. Well and also our money problems are starting to get better because we are getting a little bit smarter. Not much, but some. lol.

I can not believe Christmas is almost hear. It feels like I should still be sweltering in the heat not hanging stockings and singing carols. But I think Christmas always seems to sneak up on you. I feel bad this year because , well I guess not feeling bad just sad that I can not get all the things I would like this year for our family and friends. We can really only afford to get one big gift for our girls. I don't even know wether I can get a gift for Aaron. And any gifts for extra family or friends will have to only be for those that I do not have to mail out :( Oh and they will be hand made somethings. Not sure what yet but somethings.

I know that my mom and dad want us to come up there sometime close to Christmas but I am not sure if that will happen. Aaron has to go up to Spokane this wednesday for the Police exam and I do not know if we can do two trips to spokane let alone all the way up to my parents. But we shall see. Both Aaron and I are suppost to get bonus's this year from our jobs and I know that that will make things a bit easier.

Well enough comlaining sheesh. At the start of this I was talking about how great I feel then I end up gripping about how we can't afford stuff sheesh!!. lol. Even though we may not beable to afford a big Christmas for our girls and ourselves or are unable to send out things to our friends and family abroad I know that we are going to have a great Christmas and I know that we are loved soo much and that our friends and family really just want us to have a good Christmas too.

On a side note to friends that read this you will be getting a card :). !!! lol.


***22 days to Christmas***

Happy Thanksgiving every one!!

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I am very excited to be having my family over. I am making a huge turkey and all the trimmings. I spent all day today cleaning and got totally wiped out but it is going to be worth it.

I hope all my friends out there will have a great Thanksgiving also.

Feeling much better about life!!!

Well for the past week I have been back on my meds and I am starting to feel much more likable. I talked to my bosses about my feelings of unapreciation and over worked without much pay and they felt that I was justified but not to worry because money is comming my way and they really do appreciate me alot. I feel much better about work.

Now I just need to feel better about my home life. I feel like i send all problems at home to my hubby and make him handle it as much as he can. We started marriage counciling and it seems to be helping.

This week is really hard because Aaron has pink eye and now a soar throat. He has allready missed 3 days of work and now will be missing today and I know that this is selfish but I keep worring about his paycheck. Especially with Christmas comming. I want to have an enjoyable Christmas this year. And I know that money can not make you happy but it can make things easier when you have the money to buy the things you need. So i am just praying that we can do that next month.

I am very excited abotu Christmas this year. I am not exactly sure why either. I mean its not any more special this year then previous. I actually should be sad aboutthis year because I don't have my friends nearer to me. But I really am excited. I can not wait to get to put my tree up and decorate. I can not wait to spend time with my family doing holiday things. And I am really excited for the Christmas play that my work is doing.

Trick or Treat!!

Well besides the below events, I think that Halloween was a great time for my girls this year. Kayla dressed as a fisherman, Cherise a purple Leopard, and Maddy a white bunny. They got to go to a party at a friends, and then go trick or treating at the Tower. Then they had a party at the school and finally we did house to house trick or treating. They made out big time there. ANd they got lots of chocolate which I love. Unfortunatly i did not get any pictures of any of the Halloween fun. But the memories will last forever.

Feeling very unapreciated!!

Ok i volenteered to plan the Halloween party for work. First mistake! It consisted of a haunted house, fishing game, painting under a black light, face painting, and treats.

Monday I spent a good 45 minutes blacking out a room with big black garbage bags only to be old there was a change we could not do that activity because they did not yet have the paint or the black lights.

So then yesterday. I did my usual cleaning after lunch and was trying to get some of the decorations up I could while the little one slept in the room for the Haunted house. But there was this mom that was freaking out because her little girls where watching movies everyday at relax time instead of being allowed to read books in a different room. So she came at relax time and put her kids in the main room and tread them books for a coog 45 minnutes making it difficult for me to be allowed to get what I needed done.

So it was time to get the Haunted house done (the biggest undertaking for the party). Where was my help. Well out getting groceries, or preparing snacks, or getting the paint for the black room. i had to have a parent help me which was very appreciated but hard because she had her daughter fallowing her. And the haunted house did not turn out like i would have liked it too.

SO we get the kids all dressed ( i never have a chance to get in my costume) and I explain to them what activities they can do and we send them off in groups to start with. I did the face painting which I actualy did not mind. But after getting all the kids done I hear that the haunted house is falling apart. Great!! All my hard work going down before its supost too. Oh well.

SO after we let the kids go trick or treating in the building and settle in one of the rooms to eat thier candy i was told to start cleaning up with the other girls.

So after planning a bomb diggidy party and doing all the decorations including hand drawing and painting an awesome witches cauldron out of cardboard, setting up and tearing down the Haunted house, blacking out the black light room, and doing the face painting, what thanks do I get?? Well none because my bosses where to worried about going out trick or treating with there kids to even care that I was leaving. Oh yea I feel very unapreciated.

They expect me to do some stuff for them for the Christmas program they are planning. And right now I am having a real hard time wanting to do any of it. But i will because I am excited to do all the drawing and painting they want. But they better show me some appreciation for this or I am out!!!

I have lost my voice

This is not a metaphor for anything I have litterally lost my voice. I have had a cold for that past few days and I could tell it was going last night. Well it left. lol So today at the preschool should be interesting if they have me stay. i am not sure if they will. But seeing as there would only be 2 people there i bet i will be there for atleast most of the day if not all. Oh well.

My girls are very concerened for me though. But at fisrts when aaron told them I lost my voice cherise said "you lie dad." lol And then they thought I was tricking them. lol. BUt now Kayla is telling me to rest my voice and cherise is trying to see if she can find it for me. lol Well they are cute!!

Introducing JACK!!

This is our new cat Jack. We call him Jack Jack, Jack black, Meow Meow (maddy), and brat! LOL He is very cuddly and playful. He seems to love sleep right now. He is still a bit hesitant to the girls unless I am holding him.


This is Snowflake and Jack seeing each other for the first time and trying to decide wether they like each other or not. They are still unsure.

I got a kitten!!

We went last night and got the cutest black and white male kitten. He is about 4 months old. He is soooo cute. Even before we left the pet store we had him named Jack. He is exploring the house this evening for a bit but never gets farther then the halway lol. I am excited to see how him and the bunny get along eventually.

I do not have any pics of him yet because I need to get the batteries recharged for my camera. But as soon as I do I will post a bunch of him.

oh and did I mention that he is CUTE!!

Talk, talk, talk,talk

Last night my work had its weekly staff meeting. I thought it went good. But then as I thought about it more and more, I realized that I was doing alot of talking. And not always about things that are important. I just hope that my bosses were not bothered by this. lol. Oh well I guess i have my first goal for the month set. "Less talking when my bosses are trying to conduct meetings" LOL

Dang!! It got cold here last niight. It made it hard to sleep. We had to turn the heater on but the thermostat said it was still 70 in here. crazy. And on top of that we all seemed to have a hard time waking up this morning. Well I know why Aaron and I did lol.

His snoring has gotten sooooo bad that it is actually waking me up at night.

Awww as I am typing this all 3 of my girls are coughing!! They all have some sort of cold. Maddy has it the worst though and the longest. That is the thing that drives me nuts about the cold weather.

Wow!! What great artists.

I really am wnjoying the fact that my girls can do some sort of recognizable drawing. The butterfly that Kayla made I think is soooo beautiful. And Maddy is great at using all kinds of color. And Cherise loves to be original in her art and then interpreting it to you. It makes me happy that some of my creativity has rubbed off onto them.

Playing with chalk

Chalk is alot of fun to play with. This is out front of our door. LOL I do not know how our neighbor felt about this btu they had alot of fun.

Today it is officially fall for me.

I woke up this morning and was actually cold. And I decided that today was a great day to make a Pumkin Cheesecake Pie. Yumm! It looks great. BUt for me the fall indicator was when i got to decorate for Halloween in my house. It is great. I am soo ready for the fall season this year. I don't know if its because I love cold weather or if its because there are soo many fun things that I can do with my kids at school and at home. But I am having fun with it.
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Last week we made leaf costumes hehehe. And we went o a fall walk to collect items to glue for a dislay. We are going to be having a Halloween Party and i am planning that. I can not wait. There are so many fun things that I can not wait to get to do.

A lecturer, when explaining stress management to an audience, raised a glass ofwater and asked,"How heavy is this glass of water?"

Answers called out ranged from 20g to 500g.

The lecturer replied, "The absolute weight doesn't matter. It depends on how long you try to hold it. If I hold it for a minute, that's not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my right arm. If I hold it for a day, you'll have to call an ambulance. In each case, it's the same weight, but the longer I hold it, the heavier itbecomes." He continued, "And that's the way it is with stress management. If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later, as the burden becomesincreasing ly heavy, we won't be able to carry on. "

"As with the glass of water, you have to put it down for a while and rest beforeholding it again. When we're refreshed, we can carry on with the burden."

"So, before you return home tonight, put the burden of work down. Don't carry it home. You can pick it up tomorrow. Whatever burdens you're carrying now, let them down for a moment if you can."

So, my friend, why not take a while to just simply RELAX. Put down anything that may be a burden to you right now. Don't pick it up again until after you've rested a while. Life is short. Enjoy it!

Here are some great ways of dealing with the burdens of life:

* Accept that some days you're the pigeon, and some days you're the statue.
* Always keep your words soft and sweet, just in case you have to eat them.
* Always read stuff that will make you look good if you die in the middle of it.
* Drive carefully. It's not only cars that can be recalled by their maker.
* If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to be vague.
* If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was probably worth it
* It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to serve as a warning toothers.
* Never buy a car you can't push.
* Never put both feet in your mouth at the same time, because then you won'thave a leg to stand on.
* Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance.
* Since it's the early worm that gets eaten by the bird, sleep late.
* The second mouse gets the cheese.
* When everything's coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.
* Birthdays are good for you. The more you have, the longer you live.
* You may be only one person in the world, but you may also be the world to one person.
* Some mistakes are too much fun to only make once.
* We could learn a lot from crayons... Some are sharp, some are pretty and some are dull. Some have weird names, andall are different colors, but they all have to live in the same box.
*A truly happy person is one who can enjoy the scenery on a detour.

My girls are soo great. When I get frustrated with them I just have to remember how sweet they can be and things seem to feel better.

This is a real recent pic of them.

It has been a while!

Man my life is soo dang busy now. I barely have time to get on here and take care of the things that are important, let alone do the fun stuff. lol But I wanted to do an update on how I was doing and how my job is and my family and such.

My job is going pretty good. I love teaching the 2 yr olds. I do nto love however this 4 month old baby boy that we took on a few weeks ago. He is a nursing, spoiled, colicky little brat!!!!!! He drives all of us crazy over there. And many times I have heard my bosses say they were going to boot him but then he is still there the next day with no sign of him leaving. Now do not get me wrong. I really do love babies in general. I have 3 girls and always enjoyed the baby stage. But this baby is soo colicky at times its nuts. You hold him he cries. You rock him he cries. And you know that he was just fed and changed. i have never had to deal with a baby like this. So for me this is hard. But I am doing the best I can with it. Eventually either he will get better or he will be gone. Oh but when he smiles and talks he is very cute.

So how am I doing? Well the past few weeks I have been pretty stressed out about work things and financial things. But I am trying to over come that. Emotionally I have been pretty messed up too. I have been having some pretty big mood swings. My husband is noticing that most of them are directed at him which makes me sad at myself. I just am not sure what to do about them either. I have been trying to talk to Aaron about them but it only goes soo far. And I don't feel comfortable with anyone else here to share my inermost feelings. Its sooo hard right now.

I just woke up from a dream where I was arguing with Jesse and Tara about the fact that I say "NO" to the kids at preschool to often. They wanted me to start taking the time to say thing like "not right now" or whatever was appropriate for the situation. And I was saying that "NO" should be enough. So we were arguing and I was getting madder and madder to the point that I really wanted to just leave and I could tell they wanted the same. But yet I was pleading with them for understanding and another chance to prove that I can change and will do what they want. And the whole time there was this other woman there. Much younger with black curly hair. She was not anyone that I knew at all. I got the feeling that she was a new employee. And she was shouting "Get out!" and calling me names. I kept telling her to leave and that she had no part of this. And then Jesse and Tara would get mad that I was talking to her like that. In the end I did convince them to let me stay for another chance. But nothing was the same.

Waking up from this dream has made me scared that when Jesse and Tara's new employees start they are going to realize that I might not be someone they want working there anymore. It has bothered me ever since they said they were hiring a part time person to assist me in the infant/toddler room. And frankly I think it is stupid that I do feel this way. I know that they like me and the work that I have been doing so far. I know what areas I do need to improve in and every day I work toward improving that. I just wish that I was more assured of myself. I am always thinking that others think bad of me some how. And it makes me strive to do more for other people, which I know is a good thing. But when and how can I start to feel that I am enough for the things I need to do?? I just want these feeling of inadequacy gone from me. But then I am sure that there are a lot of people the feel the same way as I do.

Man, this world is soo messed up!!

I just do not understand this additude that the world has about marriage. I just found out today that a friend that got married a year or so ago is getting divorced. Not because they are having any big issues, just because they are not happy in thier marriage. We went to thier wedding. At the daycare we just got a new baby and the mom told us that the dad could not pick up the baby because they are in the middle of a divorce and he is not a good dad. The baby is 4 months old. The worst divorce I have been hearing abotu is one of my best friends who got married a year before my hubby and I did. hey struggled with living arrangements, money, and having children. My friend had just had twins and 6 months after they where born my friend found out that her husband was not being honest to her and possibly not faithful to her also. So she was forced to file for a divorce, even though she still loved him and truely hoped they could work it out.

Aaron and I have had our share of problems and issues in the past and I am sure we are going to have more in the future. And when i look back it makes me sad when there were those times that I threatened divorce with him. I do not think that even with all that we have been through that we will ever have to resally and truely go through a divorce to make things better. Divorce does not always make things better.

Still soo hard some times.

It soo hard to raise kids sometimes. What am I saying its hard all the time. If its not one thing its another. And it is soo hard to not feel like a failure when your child does not seem to develope in the normal range as everyone else. Right now I am refering to my middle daughter Cherise. She has been struggling with bowel problems ever since she was 2 years old. She is now 5 and still does not use the bathroom like she should. She was suppost to start kindergarten this year but with bowel problems still and the lack of maturity i see in her we have decided that we are going to hold her back this year. Instead she is going to go to the preschool I work at where they have kindergarten type lessons. But really all of this makes me feel like i did not succeed as well as I should have as a parent. When I look back at the bowel problem there are definate times I could have done better. The maturity problem mostly stems (I think) from the bowel problem. But I do know that it is for the best that she stay behind this year. It is better then sending her to school and having her not succeed. And she should be ready fr school next year.

Scary Scary Morning!!

At 6:15 a.m., about 45 mintues before our alarm was set to go off. We heard the door bell ring. My husband and I were confused as he got up to answer the door. We never get someone at our house this early. As I listen from the bedroom to hear who it is I hear my middle daughter Cherise (5) crying. I realized that she had gotten outside. And I am still listening i hear my husband talking and I picture him talking to a police officer who was returning my daughter. But that was not the case. It was just Cherise. How did this happen I am asking myself as my husband come back with our crying daughter.

So my husband and I start asking Cherise why she went outside. Her first answer is that she wanted to go swimming. Well that is wierd since we do not have a pool or a yard or anything outside of our apartment. But she had her swim shoes on. So we talk some more and she tells us that she was locked out and thats why she rang the door bell. She only unlocked the bolt lock not the door nob lock. I am glad she knew enough to ring the bell. ANd then her final reason for going outside was that she wanted to blow bubbles. She does not even have any bubbles right now.

Well it scard the heck out of us and we are not exactly sure why or how to prevent it from happening agian but we are looking into it. i am hoping to get advise from friends and family.

I am teaching!!

yes I have young minds that I will be molding come this september. I will be teaching the 2 yr olds at the preschool i work for. i am soo excited about it. I have a whole curriculam and get to plan lessons and everything. I even have my own room that I can do everything in. I also have to watch the babies for the most part while teaching so it may take some time to get in a groove with that but I think I can handle it. I allready have everything for the most part planned up to November. I will keep you posted on how it is going. Wish me Luck!!

My friend Kelli and her son where mentioned in their local news paper. It was really awesome to hear about it and to see a cute picture of her son. I am sooo glad that she is working as hard as she can to make things not only better for herself and her son but for others in her situation.

Her son has autism and it has been such a struggle for her to feel like she has made progress with him. And when she moved to a new town she was worried about what kind of support system she would have there for this and now she along with other moms are creating a great one from the sounds of it. I am soo proud of her and happy for her.

Here is the article she shared with me:


http://www.tooeletranscript.com/index.php?option=content&task=view&id=15593&Itemid=

isn't her sone just the cutest. lol I think soo!!

Cherise, Cherise, Cherise

She is my middle daughter. Her look on life is so comical. She makes us and others laugh at her views, but not because they are silly but they way she states. And to think she is ony 5 years old. I can not wait till she gets older so that I can tell her all the funny things she has said as a child.

Just this morning we were talking about my husband dead grand father. She saw a picture of him so she wan ted to know about where he is and when he was comming back. I told her he is with God and that he would come back when Christ does. So she asked me "When is Christ comming back? Is he comming on Saturday??" Oh man she makes me laugh.

There are so many other things that just make her soo cute. She talks in a sweet voice most of the time. She loves to out of the blue say "Mom your beautiful" or "Mom your boobs are big". LOL She is great. I don't know what I would do with out her.

"It was meant to be that life would be a challenge. To suffer some anxiety, some depression, some disappointment, even some failure is normal. Teach our members that if they have a good, miserable day once in a while, or several in a row, to stand steady and face them. Things will straighten out. There is great purpose in our struggle in life." Boyd K. Packer

This makes me feel a bit better. :)

~~ I just don't know if this is worth it ~~

Well as you know I have a new job at a preschool. Well i take my kids with me and so I have to pay for a portion of the costs for that. And so because I have a new job and all we make too much money to get state help anymore. Which is really bad because I so not actually make that much money yet at my new job. So now we get no food money and the medical for my girls is gone. And I am afraid we will lose our rent help too. I might be making more money next month but i do not know if it is enough to cover the loss of all of the financial help. So as it stands right now I do not know if me working this job is worth it. We do not want to have to rely on the state for financial help anymore but we also do not want to be short in food at the end of the month because I am not actually making what they think I am. The people at the preschool are being great about it. They even gave me a $25 dollar bonus in my last paycheck because they want me to stick around. And I do love this job so I want to stick around too. But not at the expense of our finaces. We still have a lot of bills even though we have done a bankruptcy. And with this new development we may not beable to get them paid. And there goes any hope of having any kind of second car to help with the crazy schedule during the school year. It is going to take a lot of praying to find out what to do about this.

My grandfather

I only have ever known one grandfather in my life. He is a quiet man. He always seemed happy. He loved to have us visit I think. I know that he loved to take things apart and put them back together. He loves to keep everything he has ever owned. He has a collection of comic books and National Geographics in the reckroom that as kids we always looked through. He used his tools to make the neatest things. One thing I remember he made was a big wagon to haul stuff in. And he would take us for rides in it. That was fun. He has a collection of license plate on his reckroom front. I think that is pretty neat. He is always willing to help out his family and neighbors. I wish that I knew a bit more about him.

His health is failing. He has been diagnosed with alzhiemers. He falls alot so my granny has to stay with him all the time now. So she only gets out when my Uncle is there to help. I feel sad about this. He lead such a good and full life that I wish this was not the way he started to go. He can no longer take things apart because he can't remember how to put them back together. I am sure that is hard for him. And this has to be real hard on my granny because she sees everyday how much he is slipping away. She is a strong woman but I wonder how much of that strength comes from having him by her. I worry about how she will do when he is gone. And my dad is very close to him too. I am sad for him. I know this is going to be hard on him. Our family (my mom and dad) have not had to deal with alot of death, atleast for most of my life time. So it makes me wonder how this is going to effect them.

~~**Small Town**~~

OK so I have known for some time that I lived in a small college town but it did not really hit me till today. As a family we went to the local farmers market and met up with my brother and his girlfriend. We walked around for a bit and it was cool to see all the stuff they were selling.

I wished that I had kept up with my necklace making and had ventured out to sell them there. BUt that is a thought I will save for another not so busy time in my life.

So anyway after we hung out at the farmers market for some time we then went to a play at an art gallery. It was "School House Rock Live!" It was a very cute play. We sat on the gallery's hard wood floor to watch and the girls loved it. BUt I think that thing that was impressive was the amount of people that were there. The only reason we heard about it was because of my brother's girlfriend. It seemed that alot of people knew about it. And afterward as we were going back to our car I just realized how many people were out on this beautiful Saturday just wondering around town. Gazing through windows, Chatting with friends, and just generally getting out. it had the total small town feel. That was the first time in the 4 years we have lived here that I really realized that this town has a great atmosphere but is not really that small of a town.

ok it is just too hot here...I mean come on. Lets get some cooler weather going on here. lol. And I think the worst thing about this for me, is that the hottest weather happened on the weekend. I work all week in an air conditioned building with some occational outside work. But at home we do not have A/C so I would honestly rather be working now instead of sitting at home lol. But thats ok we are going to go to the new play place at the mall and let the kids have fun and then possibly going to a friends house to go swimming. Have to do what you can to survive in this heat wave.

Walmart changes its shoplifting policies

http://www.outsidethebeltway.com/archives/2006/07/wal-mart_to_allow_petty_shoplifting/


Ha ha ha...They are just asking people to come and steal from them. LOL Well I hope this does not bite then in the butt.

Good article--Must read!!

Madison Hair adventures!! LOL

Before haircut

After hair cut

About 7 or 8 months ago Maddy my 3 year old decided it would be fun to cut her hair off. This was such a devistating thing for me because her hair was the only one of the 3 girls that was actually curly like mine. Well I posted some pictures of her back then of before and after.

But why is this so important to me now?? Well I noticed yesterday that it seems to be going back to curly agian. I am very excited. All I want is one girl to ave my curly hair. So hopefully she will have that. I will post a pic of her now as soon as I get a good one.

Post Secret

I discovered this great site that I love to go to each week. I have to warn you that I have seen some foul language on this site (not all the time though) so do not enter if you offend easily. But its a great place to see that people have secrets just as you do and I personally have thought of so many things I could send there. But I will be keeping them to myself.

http://postsecret.blogspot.com/

I found this one today...

Kinda wierd that today I would find one that is realted to my life.

Great book for those with husband problems

http://books.google.com/books?id=mTu_BWx-JrMC&printsec=titlepage&dq=proper+care+and+feeding

This book is called The Proper Care and Feeding of Husbands By: Dr. Laura Schlessinger

My friend Kelli let me barrow this book from her when Aaron and i were having some issues. I found this site by accident. It lets you read some of the book before you decide to buy it. I was going to post some of the book but it would not let me lol. So check it out, it is a really good book.

BLAH!!!

You know I think I really should stop comming on here. It starts to make me feel like my life is just soo boring. I look at other peoples blogs and that fact that they have people commenting on thier blog and it seems to be people that care about the blogger. I feel kinda like I don't have many that do care abotu me. Which is sooo ridiculas because I have proof that i have lots of people that care about. UGH I am a dork.

OK so I think I am getting hit hard by my deppression right now. And since I took my meds late today it makes sence. But some of the feelings I am having I know are justified. Ever since I started my new j0b and my friends moved away the only one to show me they still care is my dear hubby, and my mom. I talk to my friends some and my siblings and other folk but I do not get the feeling of caring. And it makes me wonder what am I doing wrong? Am I asking too much?? Am I not reading people right? What? What should i be doing different.

When ever I talk to my friends on the phone I think I dominate the conversation which I know is not right. But I am trying to change that one. But then I find that we run out of things to say which makes me sad. We used to get on the phone and talk, and talk, and talk and always have something to talk about. But now its all different. And yes I know that when people move awya things are going to change, I guess I just did not realize how much.

Well now I am realizing I have to lean harder on the people that are around me. But that is very hard for me to do. I have real trust issues with people. I feel like if I share too much of myself it will get used agienst me. SO I guess that is why I feel the way I do about my friends that moved away. I KNOW that they do not use my feelings or past experiences agienst me. They are the truest of friends. ANd I know that they care. So I am having a hard time finding someone that will be like them.

I gave my true feelings and self to my mother in law when my husband and I were first married and later it really came back to bite me when Aaron and I where having problems. So I think I am very hesitant to share agian because I do not want to regret it later. Its something I need to work on.

The above pictures are from our camping trips that I forgot I wanted to post. The top one is of all of the girls trying to catch bugs to put in thier bug holder. They had alot of fun with those for atleast 20 minutes. lol. The last one is of cherise at night trying to catch a bug. She kept repeating over and over "Come her bug!" in a cute, sweet and after about 10 minutes annoying voice. It was grandpa Gary that put a stop to it after that. lol THey had alot of fun on the trip.

Well since July 4th oas on a tuesday this year, we dicided to go camping in St. Regis with Aaron's parents. There was a small capmsite that we went to and set up camp at on Saturday. Aarons Parents Karen and Gary and also Garrett (Aarons cousin) Came Saturday evening with there RV (whoo hoo roughing it lol). Saturday night we sat and visited till ot got dark and late. THe next morning we all had breakfast and ran the the grocery store for some food stuff and Aaron Garrett and Gary all had a water fight with buckets of ice cold water. Both Karen and I got a bucket each It was truely cold. Then toward the end of the water fight the Nordstoms (friends of Aaron's parents) joined us. They were going to be staying in a hotel in St. Regis. It was nice to have them there. They were alot of fun to chat with.

The Nordstroms (Steve and Michelle) brought with them thier mini poddle, Lilly. THe girls were absolutly crazy over this dog. But she certianly was not crazy over them. She had not been exposed to kids often so Michelle asked the girls to be really careful around her. They were for the most part. There where 2 times that the girls had a confrontation with Lilly. One was that Cherise was in the RV and went to go under the table to pet Lilly and she went after her face barking a growling (no damage to Cherise). Well that sent Cherise out crying. The second one was when it was dark out on our last night there and Maddy was picking up paper fromt he ground in a dark spot and she must have stepped on lilly or something because all the sudden we hear barking then crying. Maddy got bit on one of her fingers. IT was sad but during both Michelle felt soo bad that it had happened. But My kids are not around dogs and the dog is not around kids so it just was not a good combination i guess. Both the dog and the kids survived hehe.

but all in all we had a blast. The girls loved sleeping all together in the tent and going swimming and getting spoiled with candy and toys lol. But now with me and the girls back at preschool we are learning hard lessons about the difference between good and bad actions. Maddy and Cherise learned that hard today as I will post about later.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMERICA!!!!

Having summer fun

This weekend we had planned to stay home for both days and get all the relaxation as possible. I have been feeling like crude and so has Maddy and Aaron. But after getting a boost of energy enough to clean most of the house I suggested to Aaron that we go to Spring Valley and finally do some swimming there. So we did it. It was alot of fun. We got Cherise a new swim suit and all of us some swim shoes and we had a blast. The girls really got into it. Especially Cherise and Kayla. They were all over the lake. Maddy had a harder time actually wanting to get into the water but eventually she got in up to her waist.

I started to teach the girls how they can swim. We did the back float and tried the trust thing. And then we moved on the the breast stroke hehe. Kayle enjoyed both of them for a small amount of time but cherise wasn't too keen on the back float. But both of them did dunk themselves atleast once in the water. It was fun.

I just want to scream right now.

my kids are acting up and driving my totally crazy. I am counting the seconds till my hubby comes home to rescue me.