Talk, talk, talk,talk

Last night my work had its weekly staff meeting. I thought it went good. But then as I thought about it more and more, I realized that I was doing alot of talking. And not always about things that are important. I just hope that my bosses were not bothered by this. lol. Oh well I guess i have my first goal for the month set. "Less talking when my bosses are trying to conduct meetings" LOL

Dang!! It got cold here last niight. It made it hard to sleep. We had to turn the heater on but the thermostat said it was still 70 in here. crazy. And on top of that we all seemed to have a hard time waking up this morning. Well I know why Aaron and I did lol.

His snoring has gotten sooooo bad that it is actually waking me up at night.

Awww as I am typing this all 3 of my girls are coughing!! They all have some sort of cold. Maddy has it the worst though and the longest. That is the thing that drives me nuts about the cold weather.

Wow!! What great artists.

I really am wnjoying the fact that my girls can do some sort of recognizable drawing. The butterfly that Kayla made I think is soooo beautiful. And Maddy is great at using all kinds of color. And Cherise loves to be original in her art and then interpreting it to you. It makes me happy that some of my creativity has rubbed off onto them.

Playing with chalk

Chalk is alot of fun to play with. This is out front of our door. LOL I do not know how our neighbor felt about this btu they had alot of fun.

Today it is officially fall for me.

I woke up this morning and was actually cold. And I decided that today was a great day to make a Pumkin Cheesecake Pie. Yumm! It looks great. BUt for me the fall indicator was when i got to decorate for Halloween in my house. It is great. I am soo ready for the fall season this year. I don't know if its because I love cold weather or if its because there are soo many fun things that I can do with my kids at school and at home. But I am having fun with it.
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Last week we made leaf costumes hehehe. And we went o a fall walk to collect items to glue for a dislay. We are going to be having a Halloween Party and i am planning that. I can not wait. There are so many fun things that I can not wait to get to do.

A lecturer, when explaining stress management to an audience, raised a glass ofwater and asked,"How heavy is this glass of water?"

Answers called out ranged from 20g to 500g.

The lecturer replied, "The absolute weight doesn't matter. It depends on how long you try to hold it. If I hold it for a minute, that's not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my right arm. If I hold it for a day, you'll have to call an ambulance. In each case, it's the same weight, but the longer I hold it, the heavier itbecomes." He continued, "And that's the way it is with stress management. If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later, as the burden becomesincreasing ly heavy, we won't be able to carry on. "

"As with the glass of water, you have to put it down for a while and rest beforeholding it again. When we're refreshed, we can carry on with the burden."

"So, before you return home tonight, put the burden of work down. Don't carry it home. You can pick it up tomorrow. Whatever burdens you're carrying now, let them down for a moment if you can."

So, my friend, why not take a while to just simply RELAX. Put down anything that may be a burden to you right now. Don't pick it up again until after you've rested a while. Life is short. Enjoy it!

Here are some great ways of dealing with the burdens of life:

* Accept that some days you're the pigeon, and some days you're the statue.
* Always keep your words soft and sweet, just in case you have to eat them.
* Always read stuff that will make you look good if you die in the middle of it.
* Drive carefully. It's not only cars that can be recalled by their maker.
* If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to be vague.
* If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was probably worth it
* It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to serve as a warning toothers.
* Never buy a car you can't push.
* Never put both feet in your mouth at the same time, because then you won'thave a leg to stand on.
* Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance.
* Since it's the early worm that gets eaten by the bird, sleep late.
* The second mouse gets the cheese.
* When everything's coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.
* Birthdays are good for you. The more you have, the longer you live.
* You may be only one person in the world, but you may also be the world to one person.
* Some mistakes are too much fun to only make once.
* We could learn a lot from crayons... Some are sharp, some are pretty and some are dull. Some have weird names, andall are different colors, but they all have to live in the same box.
*A truly happy person is one who can enjoy the scenery on a detour.

My girls are soo great. When I get frustrated with them I just have to remember how sweet they can be and things seem to feel better.

This is a real recent pic of them.

It has been a while!

Man my life is soo dang busy now. I barely have time to get on here and take care of the things that are important, let alone do the fun stuff. lol But I wanted to do an update on how I was doing and how my job is and my family and such.

My job is going pretty good. I love teaching the 2 yr olds. I do nto love however this 4 month old baby boy that we took on a few weeks ago. He is a nursing, spoiled, colicky little brat!!!!!! He drives all of us crazy over there. And many times I have heard my bosses say they were going to boot him but then he is still there the next day with no sign of him leaving. Now do not get me wrong. I really do love babies in general. I have 3 girls and always enjoyed the baby stage. But this baby is soo colicky at times its nuts. You hold him he cries. You rock him he cries. And you know that he was just fed and changed. i have never had to deal with a baby like this. So for me this is hard. But I am doing the best I can with it. Eventually either he will get better or he will be gone. Oh but when he smiles and talks he is very cute.

So how am I doing? Well the past few weeks I have been pretty stressed out about work things and financial things. But I am trying to over come that. Emotionally I have been pretty messed up too. I have been having some pretty big mood swings. My husband is noticing that most of them are directed at him which makes me sad at myself. I just am not sure what to do about them either. I have been trying to talk to Aaron about them but it only goes soo far. And I don't feel comfortable with anyone else here to share my inermost feelings. Its sooo hard right now.

I just woke up from a dream where I was arguing with Jesse and Tara about the fact that I say "NO" to the kids at preschool to often. They wanted me to start taking the time to say thing like "not right now" or whatever was appropriate for the situation. And I was saying that "NO" should be enough. So we were arguing and I was getting madder and madder to the point that I really wanted to just leave and I could tell they wanted the same. But yet I was pleading with them for understanding and another chance to prove that I can change and will do what they want. And the whole time there was this other woman there. Much younger with black curly hair. She was not anyone that I knew at all. I got the feeling that she was a new employee. And she was shouting "Get out!" and calling me names. I kept telling her to leave and that she had no part of this. And then Jesse and Tara would get mad that I was talking to her like that. In the end I did convince them to let me stay for another chance. But nothing was the same.

Waking up from this dream has made me scared that when Jesse and Tara's new employees start they are going to realize that I might not be someone they want working there anymore. It has bothered me ever since they said they were hiring a part time person to assist me in the infant/toddler room. And frankly I think it is stupid that I do feel this way. I know that they like me and the work that I have been doing so far. I know what areas I do need to improve in and every day I work toward improving that. I just wish that I was more assured of myself. I am always thinking that others think bad of me some how. And it makes me strive to do more for other people, which I know is a good thing. But when and how can I start to feel that I am enough for the things I need to do?? I just want these feeling of inadequacy gone from me. But then I am sure that there are a lot of people the feel the same way as I do.

Man, this world is soo messed up!!

I just do not understand this additude that the world has about marriage. I just found out today that a friend that got married a year or so ago is getting divorced. Not because they are having any big issues, just because they are not happy in thier marriage. We went to thier wedding. At the daycare we just got a new baby and the mom told us that the dad could not pick up the baby because they are in the middle of a divorce and he is not a good dad. The baby is 4 months old. The worst divorce I have been hearing abotu is one of my best friends who got married a year before my hubby and I did. hey struggled with living arrangements, money, and having children. My friend had just had twins and 6 months after they where born my friend found out that her husband was not being honest to her and possibly not faithful to her also. So she was forced to file for a divorce, even though she still loved him and truely hoped they could work it out.

Aaron and I have had our share of problems and issues in the past and I am sure we are going to have more in the future. And when i look back it makes me sad when there were those times that I threatened divorce with him. I do not think that even with all that we have been through that we will ever have to resally and truely go through a divorce to make things better. Divorce does not always make things better.