God I can not stop myself from bitching and moaning about everything that my husband does that is not 100% perfect (which is everything). I feel like no one can do anything as good as I can, and so when he messes up its like no shock but yet it pisses me off.
I want to be better but I am not sure what can be done. I have crushed him. He is no longer a man he is my slave and I don't think I wanted that. I just feel so messed up inside that i feel like everyone around me should be perfect to make up for my imperfections. So when that does not happen I get bitchy.
It does not help that I have no one to talk to about it. I really miss having a councilor or friend that was willing to listen and give advise when when needed. But nope do not have that anymore.
maybe I will get some help again.......lol yea right like I can afford it right now. maybe I will afford it after this stupid garnishment is through.....lol yea right we will just get another one, and another one and another one. It is a never ending cycle of crap raining down on us.