Thursday, February 28, 2008
feeling lonely, sad, vulnerable, down
Man it seems like the only times I want to post on here lately is when I am sad and blue. Oh well if it helps what am I to do.
So I think my feelings may just tem from being overly tired and missing my meds yesterday and not having heard from my closest friends lately but who knows. I just have sooo much going on that it is hard to tack don on thing causeing me to feel this way. I need to be with good friends this weekend I think.
I want my kitten allready. I think it would make me feel better too. But it has to be born dang it. LOL oh well.
I am working on helping Cherise read. I think I finally got tired of hearing the teacher complain that i am not doing enough. UGH her teacher drives me crazy. but maybe she is right too and I do not do enough with Cherise. I don't know.
It is sooo hard to take care of 3 growing girls. Especially when you are struggling with getting help from your hubby. He is trying really hard to do better and in some ways he is and maybe I am not giving him enough credit. BUt i feel inadequite for them half the time. Heck I fell asleep last night at 5 and aaron got dinner for them. I felt terrible. I woke up 30 minutes later and had to get my own dinner and then go to a class at 6;30 and I think that is when I started to feel really bad because I left everything for aaron to do last night. But he did a great job. He got the girls in a bath, did the dishes, and got them all in bed. So he did awesome. So why do i get soooo upset about him and his gaming. UGHUGHGUBGUHGUBGHG.