Friday, June 26, 2009

I am ok just get blue sometimes. I am continually exhausted after working fulltime and doing things for my family. I have a hard time seeing the good sometimes. BUt i know that my family is the most important thing there is and I need to do all I can to get us to a better place.

The girls have really been enjoying thier Nanny Beth. She truely is a gret asset to me. I still really like my job. It an be tough going from one group of kids to mine but it is totally something I can handle. I have been at the worst daycare for 3 years so my new job seems like cake. Ok just wanted ot update a more possitive post.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

I feel myself falling for the same traps I fell into several years ago. I feel depression and anxiety taking over me agian. I have been bitchy to my husband and family and feeling as if I have no friends. I hate these feelings. I hate even more that there is not much I can do about them. I can not seek out the help i need due to time and finacial restraints. I just do not know where to turn for help. I feel alone. I keep trying to create beauty around me but it does not conceal the pain I feel inside.