I feel myself falling for the same traps I fell into several years ago. I feel depression and anxiety taking over me agian. I have been bitchy to my husband and family and feeling as if I have no friends. I hate these feelings. I hate even more that there is not much I can do about them. I can not seek out the help i need due to time and finacial restraints. I just do not know where to turn for help. I feel alone...so alone. I keep trying to create beauty around me but it does not conceal the pain I feel inside.