Noone even reads this crap. I don't even know why I still have this up. Man i am sooo depressed about our finances and my family life right now. I am trying to keep it together but its hard. I do not know why i try soo hard sometimes. It just seems so mundane and pointless. I keep throwing money away and not seeing any real profit. Not gain. Not one step closer to being an upstanding human with success. Not valued. Its horrific.