Well things at the preschool are crazy as always but now we have an even crazier twist. The partnership between my bosses is going south. I can not give any details yet but I will as soon as I can. I just know that in the next few months I will either be working souly for Jess or I won't have a job but I don't know yet which.





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SO on to other things. I had a chance to go to Ashley's wedding this last Saturday. And I think the best part for me was seeing Kelli and Traci. It was really great. I don't feel like I got to see Kelli a whole lot but I will be making up for that in a few weeks when I go to Traci's wedding in July. So its all good. But I did make a difficult thing for Traci better. But over all the event seemed to go great and everyone had a good time. We were exhausted the next day and almost did not get anything done till 4 in the afternoon when I finally started some laundry.

OMG!! some people!!!

ok so I wanted to tell you a story about something that happened to me a few days ago.



I was out walking my dog and a friends dog and Maddy was with me. A gold car pulls up next to me while I am reading my mail and my dog is taking a dump. SO this lady in the car rolls down her window and starts talking to me about how people are just letting thier dogs take a sh*% any where they want.

I told her yea I know its gross and proceeded to read my mail. And then she says that she is going to watch me pick up my dogs poop. I was soo shocked I could not say anything for a bit and then said your going to watch me?!?!. She said yea I want to make sure you pick it up . I am like ummm well I will and I don't think I need you to watch. She says pick it up or I will call the police.

WHAT!?!?!? so I pick it up while I am complaining to her about how she is being rude and unnecisary and after I get it all up I tell her that she better not bother me agian or I was going to call the police on her and I walked away.



I was sooo mad becuase she was swearing in front of maddy and then assumed that I don't pick up my dogs poop. Man some people.

The graduation and possible ramblings lol

OK so the graduation was great. It seemed that the parents who came really enjoyed it. I hope I am still around to get a chance to do it agian.

now the ramblings.

It has been a tough week with all the prep for getting this graduation done with. The stress has been pretty high. But a few things have helped here. Aaron and I decided not to move. MOstly because we lost the chance at this great house, but also because we can't handle the complications that keep arising to move. SO for now we are staying in this place. But we do have a great home for our dog Crissy. My director Jessie is going to take her after she moves to her house this month. So I am happy about that. Oh and we are hoping to keep Jack the cat but that depends on wether our landlord agrees to that or not. He does not know we have him right now. but it will be nice to have everything on the up and up at last lol. Well it is time for me to conquer Small world with my awesomeness. I am the boss agian for the day. lol.

My graduation speach

OK so the preschool is having a graduation on the 30th of May. I am speaking before my kids graduate. I thought I would share my speach with you.

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When you see bubble what to you think of? Maybe a bubble bath after a hard day, or dishes that need to be washed, maybe even childhood memories. When a child sees bubbles they think of faries flying around the forest,babies that need pretecting, bees needing to be swatted, and other fun ways to pop them. When I was watching these children as they chased the bubbles around the play ground I realized that they are bubbles. I will tell you about these bubbles.

They are bubbles of energy. It seems never ending. Especially on day when mine gives out sooner then I would have liked.

They are bubbles of curiosity. In their mind no place is off limits and every discovery leads them to thier favorite question...WHY??

THey are bubbles of obedience. We see they listen to us by the way they remind thier friends of the school rules.

They are bubbles of imagination. In case you did not know, any object can be made into a hammer, even a Barbie.

They are bubbles of excitement. This is why they can't help but run everywhere, even after many friendly reminders to walk.

They are bubbles of expression. The shouts of joy can be heard for miles when they are told that it is time to go outside to play.

They are bubbles of love. No matter what they are doing they are never to busy to give or recieve a hug.

Finally they are bubbles of enrichment. Thier energy, curiosity, imagination, excitement, expression, and love make every single one of them the biggest most beautiful bubble of all.

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Now this is not the final draft. I still have some tenses to fix and i am rewording some but it took me forever to take home even a rough copy to post on here lol. SO you will get the jist of my speach and hopefully it all goes well on graduation day.

my troubles at work

OK so I know i have complained alot about the preschool I work at. And I was so stressed out by how much they used me on tuesday that they sent me home and I did depression shopping...never good. But wednesday morning I was told by Jesse that she wanted to have a talk with me and so we went for a walk. It was awesome really. She said they felt they have given me too much to be incharge of and it has not brought the best out of me. She wants the old me back. The one who was excited abotu teaching and doing crafts with the kids and such. So they did take me off salary which sucks but they will not charge me for child care during christmas break and such. And they are going to help me get back on government assistance by providing me with a lower pay stub or something so that we are just under the amount we can make and qualify. It was a great talk and i am glad I had it. I still wish i was making more but I know that they want to pay me more also. So things are starting to look up now and hopefully will stay that way.

The best thing my mom could say

I was talking to my mom yesterday morning and she was saying how she read my post about family and how they never really know you. She said that is sooo true because she has noticed how much stronger and more sure of myself I am since I lived with them. And it is true I have found alot of myself in the past year. Its really nice ot have confidence in situations that in the past I totally lacked. Now if I can just gain the confidence in myself to approach my bosses abtou needing more money and it being unfair to charge me for my own childcare.

A friend made this point about me p aying for child care while working at a place my children attened: "It is like someone making some food for you and telling you you have to eat it and that you have to pay them too. " Just does not make any sence. And all the child care centers here in my town do not charge thier employees for thier children comming.

So my options are to just stick it out and hope it gets better, tell them they need to give me a raise and that I won't stand for it anymore, or quit and go to another daycare where I can make as much as I am now and work more then helf the amount I am now.

Its going to be an intresting ride follks, Hold on!!!

I had a bad day

Well ofcourse its going to happen to everyone sometime.

Yesterday at the preschool it was sooo stressful because of our numbers that I totally lost it.

I feel like I should not be a child care provider this week. That last scentence makes me actually laugh. Every mom and dad out there I am sure has felt that way about thier children. BUt here I am with my own kids and I can't stand the way I treated other peoples kids yesterday.

My poor girls are suffering, I feel, because of my job. I mean yes, they get to have fun playing at the preschool and stuff but when we get home I feel like I just don't want them to excist. I am tired of dealing with all children and I take it out on them.

I know that this current emotional state I am in is a temperary one and that once i am more regulated I will have a better day but I still feel I will be horrible for my girls. Well I guess this is something to work on now.

forever running in circles
the destination unknown.
everyone wondering
which way I will choose.
Uncertiantly clouds the way
I need to see a light.

There is a glimmer
high in the sky
its hard to see
the clouds part
I see it clear
I will follow the light.

I found this on Post Secret. It goes out to you. You know who you are. :))

Necklaces

Wow this is kind of in addition to my new fashion. As most of you know I have gotten into making necklaces and stuff. Well I really got heavily into it because my mom wanted a neclace for her horse as a training device. Then I realized how much fun it was comming up with designs. So I made a ton. I even tried selling them on Ebay. And while I sold some I did not make enough to feel like it was worth keeping up. So I stopped making necklaces for quite while.

Then I was watching a show of mine and saw this 3 stran silver necklace one of the actresses was wearing and fell in love with it. Well I realized that I could make that easy. So it got me to go out and look at the beads and such and I started making necklaces that went with my new wardrobe. They were great and inspiring. And now I have soooooo many necklaces lining my bathroom wall that I could almost wear one each day for a month and not wear one twice.

Its Crazy!!!.

I would really like to design some and try selling them agian but I struggle with that idea because it takes sooo much effort to sell items like this. Well it is something I will have to continue to ponder as time goes by.

But I really do enjoy making these and I will try and get my scanner set up today so I can post my favorites and such on here.

***Dang Camera broke***