Change is comming just don't know when.

Well because we got a dog (yes a dog lol) we have decided that we want to get into a house. Now we are no where near the financial status to buy so we have looked to rent. We found a house out side of town that is ok. I stress ok because it is not perfect like the place we are in now was when we moved here. It is a bit cheaper in rent, has a yard. That is where for me the good things end. There is a big commute everyday, we are farther from friends and stores, there is a huge security deposit for our animals, the "yard" right now is mostly mud, and this place only has one bathroom. Oh and the big thing is that I was told by friends who I trust that the school system out there is not good at all.

So why have we not just said no to this place yet? Aaron is stuck soo much on the idea of having a house and a yard, that now that we have the chance to get into one all he can see is the good stuff and is ignoring the bad. And for me the bad is big this time.

My friends have told me to hold off renting this place and wait for summer and look for houses to rent then. There are more options then. And I like that idea alot.

So I am on a crusade to convince Aaron that this house is not the place to be right now.

Wish me luck!!!

Well things are pretty much the same. My job is complicated, my kids are misbehaving and my husband is feeling alone. But I am trying as hard as I can to remain positive and remember that things do get better. You just never know when hehe. Well here is to hoping that things will get better soon.

I love all of my friends and I love my family and I love the Lord for giving them all to me.

I am what you call "LOST"

The power inside me
I will never acheive
I can't see a way out
I don't have it right now
I feel tormented by the need to succed

my family Maddy who is just sooooooo dang cute

me at the preschool in a skirt I made My new wedding ring from aaron.
these are just some pics that will have to serve as an up
date right now. I might beable to get on tomorrow and actually do more sharing but not right now.

OK just an update

Since I have uploaded a ton of pictures I thought I would give a breif update on how things are going for us.

Aaron has soo far lost 12 lbs in his quest to complete phase 2 of becomming a Washington State Trooper. I am soo proud of him. He has resisted so much temptation in food and not excersizing. He is getting more and more excited as the weight burns off.

I have also lost a ton of weight. I have gone down a full pant size. My mom gave me some old pants she had saved and all but one pair fit me. It was great. And I look forward to lossing more weight as the time goes on. More good news for me is that i was recently given a promotion at work. I am now a Supervisor. I got a raise and of course more responsibilities. I am now incharge of making sure all chores get done by me and the other two girls. The two girls answer directly to me when quesstions arise about daily things. And I am incharge of getting an infant class organized. Plus in another 6 months there is a chance I could be made Manager. So I am very excited.

The girls had a wonderful Christmas. They got alot of toys to entertain themselves with (thankfully for me). They also managed to get some new clothes which is nice as well. They got to see both Grandparents this year which is always a great thing for them. I am most excited for school to start back up myself. The 3 of them are climbing the walls. lol

We recently let Snowball adventure out of his cage and quickly discovered it was too soon for him. Not only did he start pooping all over (thankfully not peeing) but he also started to hump Snowflake with a passion, which made me realize that he is definatly not neutered. But Snowflake let him which I found rather disturbing. But then after a second try on Snowball's part Snowflake turned around and started to attack him. They did circles in the cage then took it out of the cage and Aaron and I had to break them up. Poor boys, both of them were breathing really hard and seemed sooo upset. Oh and how did the cat react to all of this. Well he sat there with a very confused look on his face not sure of what was going on or what to do. I am glad he chose to stay out of it though. He is one smart cat (sometimes). Well now Snowball will be a caged bunny for another month or two before we try that agian. Plus I am going to see if we can get him neutered before he comes out again.

Well thats it for now. I will update agian as soon as somethign worthy comes along LOL

Maddy and all her adorableness!!

OK so I am discovering every day more and more of Maddy's fun personality. She is just so full of life and discovery. She loves to see how far she can push your buttons and how much you are willing to love her. She was a real joy to watch this Christmas as she figured out what joy you can have when spending time with family and friends.

I can not wait to see what the future holds for this precious child of mine. But will the world be ready for her?? I am not sure. Maybe its a good thing that her cousin Gracie lives apart from her at this time. They are soo alike I think the world is NOT ready for the two of them to tackle it together. LOL

Tons of fun in the snow!!

THe day after Christmas we were up at my parents house. They had atleast a foot of snow there. So all of my girls plus Jeremy's fiances daughter went out and played in the snow with Daphne.

Girls wrestling with Grandpa Stenzel

On Christmas day the girls seemed to have a ton of energy and they took it out on Grandpa for a while. I decided to capture the moment.

Girls on the real Christmas Morning!!

THis is the girls before we headed out to the Stenzel's on Christmas morning.

(side note: Kayla's lips look pale because she got a new lipgloss and it is a pale pink and she continually applied it. LOL)

Cherise and her candy!!

Well my darling middle child is one strange duck sometimes. She decided this year with all of her candy to unwrap all the chocolate coins and other candies and line them up on the table. This is a pic of what she did. When asked why she did this she did not really know just wanted to. LOL