Sabrina

My middle daughter

2012-02-06T18:37:00.001-08:00

I messed my middle daughter up pretty bad as she was growing up. I was a stay at home m going through massive depression and even though I should have known better, I did noted right by her. Thank god I am now better able to handle my emotions most of the time and finally have honest insight in to how to raise and treat kids. I hope that my daughter will have a normal life from here on out. I hope that she knows that I did the best I could with her and that it's not her fault she is the way she is. Wow I have never said that to anyone. Wow

Ugh!! Stress sucks!!

2012-01-31T19:14:00.001-08:00

I have an anxious feeling in my body right now. I just got done fighting with my hubby about putting dirty dishes in the dish washer without rinsing them. It's sad that this would stress me out so much. I am tired of fighting with my husband about stupid things. Ugh! The stress of it is stupid.

Tv show addict

2012-01-29T11:21:00.001-08:00

I feel as though I am such a waste of space and time. I just sit around watching all the creative shows that people can put out. I do this instead of spending time with my family or cleaning or continuing my education or play around with my dogs or improve my sewing or drawing skills or reading a good or bad book.

There are so many better ways for Me to spend my time, yet I choose to sit on my ass and waste my brain away on other peoples creativity.

I wish I knew how to stop being such a tv addict but it the only thing I truly feel connected to right now. The only thing that can take my mind off of how messed up I feel about myself or my husband or my kids or my job or our finances or my friends or lack of friends right now.

Well anyway I guess some would say that recognizing I have a problem is a step in the right direction but I don't buy it. I think knowing you have a problem and not doing anything about it is terrible.

Work

2011-11-28T16:40:00.000-08:00

So last week I only ended up working two days but it was the most stressful I have been at this job ever. I seriously thought about not going back. Today however was a very typical Monday and it sailed right by and it was actually enjoyable. Plus my boss said she is FINALLY going to order the class supplies that I so desperately need to entertain my kiddos. I am so excited. Yes she can easily buy me off with fun toys for the kids. LOL

Now my assistant is leaving on Dec. 16th to focus on her schooling. I am extremely nervous about this. I have been working with her for over a year and we both have gotten into bad habits but we also work so well together. So I really do need to cut some of my bad habits and be re-excited about my work. It is hard to do both with out my boss around to ground me though. I hope she comes back soon. :P

Anniversary

2011-11-07T18:00:00.001-08:00

Today is my husbands and mine 13th anniversary. I am still incredibly happy to be married to my man. It has been a trying 13 years but they have been learning experiences. I look forward to many more years with my loving husband. Love you babe? <3

Changes are hard but worth it

2011-11-06T18:54:00.001-08:00

I am trying to keep negative thoughts about others out of my head when something does not go the way I would like them too. It is very challenging to do this when you are naturally a negative person, as I am discovering. I did it though tonight. I did not flip out at some change in events tonight. I did not think "god why can't people just work around what I want". As I tend to do. I asked questions first and then expressed in a calm matter what I would like to see happen next time. I am proud of myself for doing this.

Facebook sucks sometimes

2011-10-30T09:43:00.001-07:00

I hate when I post something on Facebook and then get no replies or likes. I know it's a minor thing but It makes me feel important when i see that people have read my shared thoughts or what ever. Well that is my thoughts about Facebook.

Cinnamon rolls

2011-10-30T06:06:00.001-07:00

I made cinnamon rolls yesterday and they weren't bad. I will have to experiment some with making them gooey next time. I think I am going to make them for the bake sale at my kids school in a couple of weeks.

I enjoy baking when it starts to get colder. And boy did it get colder fast. But then that is what happens when fall hits here.

Pain of a bitch

2011-10-24T03:40:00.001-07:00

At 2:30 am Aaron woke me complaining of lower back pain. I do not wake very well at all so I was not nice with my response. After about 20 minutes of him writhing around on the bed in pain he says he needs to go to the ER. My first thought "crap we can't afford this". My second thought "how am I going to function at work tomorrow after just a few hours of sleep?".

So here we are at the ER for my hubby and I feel so much guilt at the way I thought about this situation.

Why is it that I thought this way? Why can't I have compassion for the fact that my husband is in pain?

He will be fine. He is most likely passing a kidney stone so they will load him up with meds and send home again. We have been through this before a few times now.

The squeaky wheel

2011-10-23T09:41:00.001-07:00

So I have been struggling this year and most years really with making sure that Cherise is being as successful in school as possible. She struggles with focus and a drive to want to be successful. So because of this her homework is not done often or if it is done it is not turned in. I have decided this year to make sure that both her teachers know without a doubt that I want to help and that I will make noise when I do not feel they are doing all they can to help her.

I just sent both of her teachers an email with, hopefully, some good suggestions about what can be done differently to help with communication from school to home. I hope they receive it well and and see I want to be part of the solution. Well I shall see soon I am sure.

Lets give this another try

2011-10-22T06:28:00.001-07:00

I have not blogged in almost a year. Things have been very busy for our family.

I have taken on a lot more responsibility at work. I am now the leas toddler teacher and a supervisor. My boss went on maternity leave a year ago and left me and another co worker in charge. This has been one the most challenging role for me career wise so far. I feel that at times I really stepped up and did what I needed. I grew as a person and a leader. There were of course times where I flopped but I learned from those times.

My role as lead teacher has blossomed into my favorite role so far. I love seeing these little explorers use their brains and imaginations. Last yea I started purchasing a toddler curriculum online and found it useful to start my creative teaching process. This year I am reusing everything I did last year. I am finding that I can add to it in more useful ways and I have more free time to devote in other areas of my life. I get stressed out at times because I am dealing with toddlers (lol) but for the most part I feel so lucky to have the job I do.

My dear husband, Aaron is working in sales at his job of 7 years now. He is doing such a great job at showing his boss and coworkers that he is a valuable member of their team.

Aaron has started riding a bike to help cut down on the gas cost from his new truck. Bonus though, the bike riding will help him to lose some weight and hopefully reduce his high blood pressure issues.

Aaron was so excited when we where finally financially stable enough to get him his dream vehicle. A 2004 Dodge Ram truck. He has used it all ready to haul around a lot of stuff and loves it.

Kayla has turned into the most stunning little woman I have ever encountered. She is now 12 years old and so pretty. Also she has a great mind on her that she uses often to her benefit. She is excelling in school and has a perfect teacher to help keep her interested.

Kayla got her first cell phone just over a year ago (I think). She was pretty excited about this. We have struggled with her staying on top of answering t when we call or text and she has lost it a few times but over all I think she is handling way better then a typical 12 year old.

Cherise is such a comic genius. Last night she had all of us in laughing hysterics with just a part of her Halloween costume and a balloon. (I will post the short video as soon as I figure out how. :). Cherise is still struggling with school and homework and paying attention but I am confidant that in time she will master those skills entirely.

Cherise is now 10 years old. She has discovered a love for music and tv. She is constantly asking for a cell phone but she has to wait a bit longer still. I am afraid we will have to give in on this front soon though. Cherise is trying hard to be friends with her sister Maddy but these two have a lot of challenges with getting along.

Madison is a crazy, insane 8 year old girl. She is full of emotions and lets them out regularly. Yet I still love this girl to pieces. Maddy wants to craft all the time. She is a none stop ball of energy that I would like to tap into. She also has a curiously for baking that I need to encourage. She is a greatly little learner. She gets excited (most of the time) about her home work and is always wanting to show of her skills to me the second I get he from work.

Our current pet count is a follows: 2 dogs, 1 cat, and 2 fish. This is a low count for our family. We usually would have a few more but after recently (a year ago) getting a puppy we realized we were in love so much that we now feel complete. Paige is our big dog (fox hound/boxer mix). She is 5 years old, I think. She loves lounging and wrestling and sleeping with Kayla. Charlie is our little dog (chihuahua/daschund). He is a year old and so hyper. He is hilarious to watch run around after Paige or the cat. He loves chewing and cuddling. Oliver is our dumb ass/fat cat. Lol. He is 3 years (think). He loves lounging and swatting at Charlie and meowing to go outside at 4 am. The 2 fish are gold fish. They are kayla's. They live in her room and I believe they are still swimming. Lol

Well that is it for my giant update. But I will be trying to update offer so they should not be quite as long as this.

2010-05-28T16:27:00.000-07:00

How do you rebuild a friendship? I think first I have to go slow. I don't think I want to get together all the time anyway. But it is hard to over come the hurt...really hard. I really want though to have a better relationship...the question though is does she want that? I am not sure. i still think she doesn't like she said but I dont know. I guess i will just have to stick to step one....Take it slow.

time for a raise

2010-05-11T05:54:00.000-07:00

well I am freaking AWESOME!! I got my year evaluation and I got glowing reviews and another dollar raise. There are some areas I need to work on but I am aware they are a problem so I think I can knock them out. I now make as much as aaron does hourly. I am soo excited about what the rest of this year holds for us. This money is going to make it so we can really start to get things paid off and then enjoy making this kind of money. Well enough gloating. I am off to work now.

no more personal talk at work

2010-04-29T15:52:00.000-07:00

So I had a talk with Tami cause I have been feeling left out of friendships at work.. Which is funny cause I thought I did not want to make friends at work. Anyway there is drama with some of the other teachers and I was feeling like my assistant was allowed to join but I wasn't which then made me feel like things were wierd with my assistant but in reality it is all just me.

tami told me that in my peer evaluations I had alot of people say that i shared too much personal stuff at work. I had figured that out on my own this week and have been trying to figure out how to make it stop so this had not come to a big surprise it just hurt that I would be ratted out for sharing too much when everyone else does it as well. but I will be the bigger person and try to get it under control.

So how do I know if what I am sharing is to personal?? Is it just the negative stuff or is in anything about my home live good or bad. It will take some time to figure out what exactly that means but I am sure that I can get it under control. I need to say things like " I am sorry but I don't think its appropriate to talk about this right now" or something. its going to be hard but I think I can do it.

So little blog you are going to have to be my outlet for personal stuff cause I can not use my coworkers anymore. and i do not have anyone else really to complain too. Everyone who I use to do that has left me. They are doing thier own lives and can't be bothered with me anymore. it makes me sad.

2010-04-04T20:44:00.000-07:00

2010-04-04T20:19:00.000-07:00

Great craft room organization ideas

Such a bitch

2010-04-04T19:50:00.000-07:00

God I can not stop myself from bitching and moaning about everything that my husband does that is not 100% perfect (which is everything). I feel like no one can do anything as good as I can, and so when he messes up its like no shock but yet it pisses me off.

I want to be better but I am not sure what can be done. I have crushed him. He is no longer a man he is my slave and I don't think I wanted that. I just feel so messed up inside that i feel like everyone around me should be perfect to make up for my imperfections. So when that does not happen I get bitchy.

It does not help that I have no one to talk to about it. I really miss having a councilor or friend that was willing to listen and give advise when when needed. But nope do not have that anymore.

maybe I will get some help again.......lol yea right like I can afford it right now. maybe I will afford it after this stupid garnishment is through.....lol yea right we will just get another one, and another one and another one. It is a never ending cycle of crap raining down on us.

Selfishness

2010-04-04T15:11:00.000-07:00

Selfishness denotes the precedence given in thought or deed to the self, i.e., self interest or self concern. It is the act of placing one's own needs or desires above the needs or desires of others.

Its really sad when you truly start to see those around you turn to this way of thought. I guess all of us at one time or another go though this at some point. But to be soo damn selfish that you can not hink of ANYONE else but yourself that you completely ignore the feelings of others all together. How can that be? Well I spend all day thinking about the feelings of others.....I worry about how I could have made them feel. It makes me sad to know I hurt someone. i am sure I will always be this way.

For those that are selfish and don't think of others and could care less about others...you should think abotu caring just a bit more....just a bit.

My job

2010-04-02T15:58:00.000-07:00

I am a member of a small group. I love my job!! It is rare that someone can say this or at least it is rare for me. I get to play with babies and be creative and be in charge. I get to tell others what to do and my boss has my back. I feel very comfortable there.

The babies have thier challenges like when they cry and you can not figure out what they need to feel better. The creativity comes through when I plan what activities we are going to do. There are alot of limitations because they are babies but I still have a ton of things that we do together. I also have a great mural of the kids on the wall and that gets changed some according to the seasons. I make each child a scrapbook for when they leave me and this too helps keep y creativity fresh.

I am nervous because my current assistant is going to be leaving in a month and a half. It is going to be tough I believe to start anew making sure that I am respected and known as knowledgeable enough to be the one in charge. I am worried that one of the part time assistants we have will move up to be my full time assistant. I am worried because I don;t know that we will get along as well as my current assistant. But this is a trial I will have to work through when I need to. We shall see what happens.

Ramblings

2010-04-01T20:56:00.000-07:00

i have not posted in quite a while and this one is a tough one cause I am not sure if I really want to post it but I am going to have to stop worring sooo damn much about other peoples feelings and find a way to vent my own. so if this does not appeal to you then do not read further.

I have been thinking.....my feelings have been hurt....now while I know this is not your problem and you might not even care but there it is. Why are they hurt? I feel slighted and abused and left out and uncared for. I know that life is crazy and busy and more cause that is how it is for me. I can forgive not being asked to come over for dinner or not having a movie night because I am too tired most of the time to really want to get together. Last time that I tried to talk about us not getting together I was told that you did not want anyone too involved with your life. Well I do not want to be involved with your life in anyway that you might think. i just wanted friends. Plain and simple. Friends that cared enough to give me a simple call or pay a simple visit. There are many many evenings were I could use a friend but there is none there for me or for Aaron. So we both have thrown ourselves into make believe entertainment. again I know this is not you problem but those are the facts.

i have come to think of you as the kind of person that cared about others. and there was a time that i was there for you when you felt like you had no one else to turn too. when I think about it now i wonder if that was a mistake. I feel like it did no good for our friendship...if anything it made it more strained and unreliable.

I know that you are currently having a lot of challenges and I am soooo glad that you are seeking help from the community for alot of those but one question......did you just use me because i feel like you used me....you got me to help you and then you threw me aside. with no other thought as to what i might feel. Maybe it is for the best though because I am finding that I a getting to depressed waiting to be noticed....waiting for my amends. when is that going to come?? When am I going to understand why things happened the way they did. I just want understanding.....it is too late most likely to get our original or even our most recent friendship back but one can hope.

these feelings are real and sure I might need meds half the time to keep some of them in check. I do not expect that these will be resolved any time soon. I think it will take a miracle for both of us to find what we really want to stand for.

I do not want to see friends suffer but at the same time I have soo many issues. Ihave done things that i am not proud of...so not proud that I eat. I eat and watch tv and I am sad. I am sad because I do know how to change but do not see a good reason to change.

Hmm interesting

2009-11-20T06:14:00.000-08:00

Ok so I had a realization. My parents are not cool. When we were going to church but having soo many financial issues, they helped us out financially and came to see us and did stuff with us. Especially my mom, we would talk on msn all the time, and she would come kidnap me and take me away. But now that we do not go to church and are not doing things they approve of they hardly speak to me or the girls. They don't seem to care about us as much. It makes me sad that church is something that makes you closer to people but if you don't go then you do not get that. Why can't you have friends and your family and still not have to go to church. There is no point in going if all you are going for is to get friends and socialize. Plus I am not willing to give up one of the two days a week I have to relax and get myself in order agian before i go back to work.

2009-10-22T16:19:00.001-07:00

I am here!!!

2009-08-30T06:02:00.000-07:00

Noone even reads this crap. I don't even know why I still have this up. Man i am sooo depressed about our finances and my family life right now. I am trying to keep it together but its hard. I do not know why i try soo hard sometimes. It just seems so mundane and pointless. I keep throwing money away and not seeing any real profit. Not gain. Not one step closer to being an upstanding human with success. Not valued. Its horrific.

2009-07-21T07:34:00.000-07:00

I am fairly certian that i am Bi polar but can not afford the time or the money ot really find out. I got really close recently but my councilor left and i did not want to have to start over with another one. Now I do not know what to do. Plus I feel like those how act like they care for me really do not as much as they have said.

2009-06-26T17:06:00.001-07:00

I am ok just get blue sometimes. I am continually exhausted after working fulltime and doing things for my family. I have a hard time seeing the good sometimes. BUt i know that my family is the most important thing there is and I need to do all I can to get us to a better place.

The girls have really been enjoying thier Nanny Beth. She truely is a gret asset to me. I still really like my job. It an be tough going from one group of kids to mine but it is totally something I can handle. I have been at the worst daycare for 3 years so my new job seems like cake. Ok just wanted ot update a more possitive post.

2009-06-14T07:42:00.000-07:00

I feel myself falling for the same traps I fell into several years ago. I feel depression and anxiety taking over me agian. I have been bitchy to my husband and family and feeling as if I have no friends. I hate these feelings. I hate even more that there is not much I can do about them. I can not seek out the help i need due to time and finacial restraints. I just do not know where to turn for help. I feel alone...so alone. I keep trying to create beauty around me but it does not conceal the pain I feel inside.

bit of a rant

2009-05-27T06:53:00.000-07:00

I am working my ass off to make money along with aaron. But i am trying soo hard to conserve money too. I took up recycling to reduce the cost of our garbage. I wash in cold not so I can save electricity. And I try to keep lights off and stuff to just keep costs down. And my husband keeps on doing the oposite. Ugh I just wish I could make him understand how important it is to conserve. Ok rant over lol

to my new life

2009-05-13T13:04:00.000-07:00

ok so its the same life just with great new twists. I totally love my job. It ofcource has its moments but I can see being there for a long time. My assistant is really nice and great to work with. THe house we moved into is pretty good too. I can not say that i love it because it smells of cat pee and is lacking in storage but it is a place to live and the kids are close to the pool, gracie and others that they can have fun with and they have never really had that. I am happy. and it has been a while since I could actually say that. So here's to happiness and a twist on my life that was much needed.

My new job

2009-04-16T07:52:00.000-07:00

OK so I am soo excited that I decided to go after the newdaycare job. It is soo nice over there. They really seem ot like each other and help each other out. It really clean and focused on the children. Tammi said that there have been issues with drama but they are all like college girls so I hope that will keep me from getting involved. Oha and in may I have a DESK un holy cow. Its nothing too spectacular but its a desk of my own and that is cool. So now I just have to survive the move and everything will be great this summer. WHOO HOO. It feels soooo good to finally have things go right. Thank you GOD!!!

My current life

2009-04-12T08:08:00.000-07:00

So its Easter. I think that its a fun day of eating candy and doing nothing much else. lol. I kinda do wish that we had made plans to go to church or do something though. It would have been nice to have something to do.

Anyway......

I wanted to talk about all the STUFF that is going on. OK so first I think I have a new job. It is at a Preschool and I really like the Director. I just have to work out what I am going to do with the children as the preschool does not have room for anymore after school children right now. So I think I am starting atleast part time next week and then fulltime by the end of the month. I am trying to just get most of my summer covered and make it to the fall where they will all them be in school full time and then things can settle down. So to start I need someone to watch them just 3 days a week for 2 hours in the afternoon after school. That one seems to be tricky. But then i also will need full time care during the summer fro 8am -5pm EVERYDAY. And the sad thing is that I can not offer a whole lot of money. I am kinda hoping I guess that I can find a student that would not mind alot of work for little pay lol.

OK so the next thing is that we have to move agian. Our landlord (WHO IS AN ASS) is selling our house and so I want to get out ASAP. Which means we move before May so I do not have to give the man anymore rent. Well we did find the house we like. Its older but its 4 bedroom and right by the pool and schools (oh and Kelli lol). It has a huge yard and the guy seems fine with our dogs. So we gave him our application and we will have to see what he says. But we are also looking at 2 other places on monday. I want to be sure to look at every available before we make our final choice. My hope is that this is our last move until we are able to BUY our own home.

And yea we are in the process of getting our own home. For us this is HUGE. We haven't had the best luck financially in the past 10 years but the past 3 years have been sooooo much better then ever. So we found out that with the USDA Rural Program they help out low income families get there own home. We do have some credit rebuilding before we qualify but after a year I think we will be able to see this be a reality.

that last thing I wanted to talk about was my sweet daughter Cherise. I feel sad because I approached my mom about haveing all 3 of my daughters up there this summer but one at a time. She said well yea I would have Kayla. And when I explained that i was thinking about all of them she really hesitated about Cherise. She said that she doesn't think that they get along and so it wouldn't work. I was devistated becauce Cherise has gotten the short end of the stick for a while now when it has come to both mine and Aarons family. Not too many family members see her as someone they want to spend time with. I told my mom that it made me sad to hear her say that about one of her grandchildren and told her how she gets that too from Aarons family (using guilt) and she did change her mind saying it might be a good opertunity to get to know her and that she could alway send her back if it did not work. I guess this just really hut me in soo many ways. I know my children (not just cherise) have dificult moments. But it seems that mine and Aarons family only value Kayla as the worthwhile child. But I have 3 children that are of worth and are great to spend time with. I guess I just expected that all 3 of my children would be loved the same by thier extended family. And now that I am seeing they are not it truely saddens me to the core. Well I will not force any of my children on to someone. I do hoope though that our families start to realize the value of every child in it. Not just those that are quiet and cooperative all the time.

So this is currently how things are for me. I am under soooo much stress that I and my councilor often wonder how I get out of bed in the morning and yet I do. (first one usually) but soon things will settle down. I hope!!!!!!!!!!

Just ramblings....

2009-03-23T20:25:00.000-07:00

I totaly miss updating here. I never have the time or brain powere usually.

I am jaut soo sad all the time lately. My preschool is closing, i have to find a job, We have to buy a washer, We may have to move agian in a few months cause our landlord is an ass. I just do not understand why I am always under the sad spell. I get really tired of it that is for sure. I was just want to stop being soo sad all that time. But I really do not know how. i keep allowing things to effect me so deeply. Like take the dumbass landlord for instance. He is being a prick but he has his reasons I am sure. Well I am furious that he is doing this. But i hate that he is causing me to feel this way, so I feel ashamed for that too. UGH I just need to vent and i have every right to vent so i am going to do that here. If noone reads this then that is probably for the best as I do not seem to make too much sence anyway. I have to put getting my CDA on hold to get a washer. UGH that makes me mad. I have been trying to better myself by doing classes and such and now a dang washer is standing in my way. Its only temperary but its is still there. I have a job opertunity at another daycare but it is not garanteed. I do not know if i really want to work there anyway. I don't know. I am jsut griping. What I really want to do is get a really big glas of wine and gulp it down fast and then I do not have to care about anything for a small amount of time. But that is not how to handle stuff like this. Plus i do not have any. I am finally getting more organized I think. I wish I could control all aspects of every event that happens in my life. I can not though so i feel like i have let myself down in some way. I know I feel like a bad mom like ALL the time. The only other person that i know understands that is Kelli but I think she is an awesome mom and person to beable to handle her trials and still put up with me in the midst of it all. I feel like the worst friend on the planet cause i gripe sooo dang much. I feel like a horrible wife like all the time and wish Aaron knew how his looks and glances at me made me feel even worse. I really need to be medicated I think.

We have Moved!!!

2009-01-27T18:58:00.000-08:00

Wow soo much has happened since after christmas. We had started looking for a new house to move to soo we could finally get some extra space. Well at first we did not find anything except a new dog....lol. we adopted Frodo, a small rat terrier. He is 4 years old and a great addition to our family. Then we continued looking. We found a very nice house in a great part of town. So we applied for it and someone else got it. Bummer. But the search continued. We knew there was somethign out there for us. So on wednesday in the second week of January we found a big house that was a bit higher in rent we were willing to pay. But after talking to the landlord he was willing to lower the rent price. So I went and took a look at it. HUGE!!!! A bit on the older side but it was just perfect for us. There was no application to fill out we just had to get him the rent. We did manage it and then that fallowing saturday we moved in. It took all of one hour and thirty minutes to load and then unload. That was great. After talking to our land lord I found out it would be ok to paint.....WHOO HOO!!!!. SO now I am painting Madison's room nd will soon be moving on to other rooms. I will post pictures of befores and after and such as soon as they are available...(camera batteries are dead).

Christmas Morning

2008-12-25T09:53:00.000-08:00

christmas eve

2008-12-24T18:37:00.001-08:00

The girls really want to open some presents on Christmas Eve.

So I let them.

They go new pajamas.

I know I know

2008-12-16T17:02:00.001-08:00

I could not pick just one of her many poses....so I put them all...She is modeling her new skirt...what a doll.

new kind of skirt for the gills

2008-12-06T20:24:00.000-08:00

So I found a pic of these kinds of skirts in a magazine and found the website where they sell them and stole the idea for my girls. This one is cherise's...finished it today. She won't take it off lol. I think they are soo fun.

Here is the website where i stole the idea:

http://www.beninibug.com/

Wedding dresses

2008-11-30T08:35:00.000-08:00

So my sister Naomi is getting married on December 27th to a great guy. The girls are going to be kinds flower girl/helpers so I started making them some dresses in the wedding colors. This is Maddys dress. I still have to take the straps up some but she loves this dress. So cute.

My tattoo

2008-11-25T16:16:00.001-08:00

OK so when i get my tattoo it will be the girls initials with the plumeria flower...It means motherhood. So here are 2 sketches i have come up with.

This one soo far is my favorite.

What do you think?

Aaron's Tattoo

2008-11-25T13:34:00.000-08:00

So Aaron really wants a tattoo for christmas. I drew him one that he loves but then I revised it some. Here it what I think will be the final choice.

This is thw outline.
This would be with shading and such.

I think he is going to get it on his shoulder but not sure yet

So what do you think??

Tell youa bit aboout the meaning of it....the A and S are for Aaron and Sabrina and they suround the sourd which is from the nights of the templar and we are flying away on wings together. lol ok well maybe sappy but I think it is way stinking cool.

Halloween pics

2008-11-06T13:57:00.000-08:00

new experiences

2008-10-19T11:50:00.000-07:00

after time things get stale and lack luster. it is great every once in a while to throw in a bit of excitement to brighten you life and perspective. There are new experiences every where. Serarch them out and see which one will brighten you!!

I am still here

2008-10-10T19:24:00.000-07:00

I have been soo busy with work, kids, friends that i just have not had the time to get on here. But i am still alive and things are going great. Hopefully I will get on here longer then a few minutes one day and dish. Love to all my friends who read this. :)

Kayla's birthday party

2008-09-28T06:54:00.000-07:00

Kayla had her birthday party this last saturday. She is now 9 years old. Ican not believe it, its crazy she made it through. lol

Well here are some pics of her Candy Land Party. I hope you like them.

This is the start of the game.

Well I could not think of amy snappy or witty comments to add to the pics. lol But the girls had soo much fun. We played the game 3 times. They got sooo much candy and then cake and ice cream. Then sent them home. BWAhahahahaah. It was great.

More random pics.

2008-09-15T17:41:00.000-07:00

So I like to play with my camera sometimes and these are just some fun pics of me and or the girls. Enjoy!!

Maddy Playing dress up

Yes I know her hair is like short ang gone. She wanted it that way.

Cherise and her monkey at the wsu game just having fun.

2008-09-09T16:55:00.000-07:00

so I have had MANY friends in the 30 years of my life. It was soooo easy when i was little I decided. But I am starting to think that i have never had a normal friend ship. I think I rely to heavily on my friends to show me how awesome I am. When all the while i should beable to see how awesome I am in other ways too. Why is that so hard.

what is a normal friend ship anyway? I don't really know. I put myself out there regularly showing that I am willing to make friends but then nothing becomes of it. Am I relying to much on them making the next step?

I do have some great friends right now. But I just had to mentally say goodbye to someone who I have considered a good friend for that last year and a half. MY BOSS. I still work with her and see her everyday but I just do not think that a friendship is something that we can keep going. it makes me really sad. I have not told her that I really can not consider her a friend anymore because its just too painful but I am showing it by not doing things outside of work with her. No more do i hope and wish for that. we will just have to remain boss and employee.

Crazy how life changes!!

2008-09-08T17:06:00.000-07:00

So last year I worked part time during the school year and then just went home and chilled till the girls got home. I basically had to look for things to fill my time then.

This year I still work part time but definatly do not need to LOOK for things to do now. Suddenly I have tons to do. Appointments to go to....LOTS of them. I barely have time to think. lol Its ok makes the days go faster. So when I finally have time to relax I CRASH hard. Usually fal asleep on the couch by 9 pm.

Would I change this year for last year? No i like being kept busy. it helps me ot actually eat less and stay organized. I would not mind a few less appointments but they are neccessary.

OK there real stuff to read. lol

Fashion Show Clip

2008-08-31T11:58:00.000-07:00

This is a clip of the Old Navy Fashion show that the girls did a few saturday's ago. They were great from what I hear. I was stuck in a CPR Class tha afternoon so all I saw was this clip. lol

Random pics

2008-08-31T11:39:00.000-07:00

Madison showing off her outfit she modeled at the Old Navy Fasion Show. And cherise behind her. Hopefully I can get the video on here too.

Maddy and her best friend Maureen with there baby, a bottle of propane. lol
My lazy cat, just a cute pic.

Yea we all look trilled lol
Maddy fell out cold on the way up to my parents house a few saturday's sgo.
Cherise and her best pal. :)
The sleep over girls pretty much sleeping on top of each other lol. Cherise is in the middle.
One giant leap for cat kind. lol Dorkas cat, cool pic!

Cherise had a make over by her cousin Felisha. MEOW!!

The girls finally getting to hold their newest little nephew, Levi. What a cutie!!

Madison enjoying an ice cream cone. YUM!!

Revelation

2008-08-11T06:57:00.000-07:00

I found this on my favorite website. It used to be about me. But after last week iam working there becasue of me. Because I can grow and gain great experiences. I am not doing to do it for anyone else anymore. Just had to share that.

Live, Laugh, Love

2008-08-08T06:24:00.000-07:00

well it can be anyway.

I struggle.

Live Well
Laugh Often
Love Always

That is the motto I am trying to live by right now.

I really need to seperate the idea of friends from my job. Its unfortunate but noone at my work can be a true friend. I can laugh with them and talk to them but I will not beable to bond with them anymore.

I have been hurt.

I was trying soo hard to be friends. And then along came oposition and I have to concede. Its ok though I know I have friends that while related to my job do not just see me only as my job. They see more in me then sometimes I see in myself.

I need to succeed.

I have been slacking a bit lately in my job and I need to stop that. It was hard to see someone else do a task that I coulad have accopmlished if only I had been paying attention.

I am excited.

My closest friends are moving back close to us. I am overwelmed in joy and love in this fact. My rocks are comming home. :)

A Memory Game

2008-07-27T08:25:00.000-07:00

OK, this looks like a lot of fun... So everyone who visits my blog, please do it!!

Here's how it goes:

1. As a comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember! If you don't have a blog you can still leave me a comment! My blog allows anonymous comments so just tell me who you are in your comment.

2. Next (if you choose to), re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you. If you don't want to play on your blog, or if you don't have a blog, I'll leave my memory of you in my comments.

Inspired by K8

2008-07-19T08:50:00.000-07:00

Her picture of her table was soo great I thought I would try to take a good one of mine too and show you all. We Just got this table like 5 days ago.

Craft Day!!

2008-07-19T08:21:00.000-07:00

So my typical lazy Saturday has turned into Craft Day!!

THey started off painting thier bird houses they got from the preschool.

Apperently Maddy needs a bit of every color available. lol

Then the cat wanted to help.

Paige was just happy watching.

FINISHED PRODUCTS

2008-07-19T07:16:00.000-07:00

So its been a while since I have just shares my thoughts on here. I love the fact that I can post pictures agian. I have to send a shout out to my digitial camera lol.

Well things are going pretty good here. We are all finally healthy. Aaron and I both had early onset of Nuemonia and had to miss out on 2 days of work this week. But it wasn't too bad really because we got to spend time with our new dog, Paige. She is a real sweetheart. Allthought she is very timid toward us still but I figure that will just take time before she is totally trusting. And the fact that she has pink eye right now does not help because I have to have Aaron hold her head so I can put drops in her eyes. UGH!! BUt its going away slowly I can tell.

Pretty soon school is starting and I tell you what I am sooo excited about that. i am not looking forward to the extra cost of school supplies but I am excited to see my baby Maddy go off to kindergarten. I am sure she will relly enjoy it, once she gets over theinitial schock on not being with mom 24/7 lol.

well I know there is more to share but don't really have it in me right now to do more. I can't really get ahold of all of my feelings right now. They go by soo fast that I can not find a place to start. I am hoping the I get a good councilor at WSU to help me with this. We shall see.

Meet our new girl Paige!!

2008-07-15T06:40:00.004-07:00

We rescued Paige from a shelter in St. Maries. So far she has been just a joy. I will leave more info on her in a bit but for now enjoy the pics. She is boxer/fox hound mix.

Camping

2008-07-15T06:40:00.003-07:00

parade

2008-07-15T06:40:00.001-07:00

Fireworks and More

2008-07-15T06:39:00.001-07:00

being a girl is hard

2008-06-28T08:30:00.001-07:00

OK so Kayla who is 8 wanted to have a sleep over with her two best friends. So I took all 5 girls to the pool after work and we went and got pizza and then the girls started playing. Well they seemed to be doing great until I started going to bed at 10.

One of her friends said she wanted to go home cause she missed her mom. So We called mom and mom said to hang out for a half an hour and then see how she felt after that. Well I went to bed after that and left th 3 girls in the livingroom to watch movies. Aaron was playing the computer so they were not totally alone. But I guess the one friend did not want to stay after that 30 minutes because she called her mom agian and went home.

So it was kayla and one friend. But then soon after the other friend wanted to go home too. So Aaron came in a told me he was taking the other friend home too. Well this morning Aaron told me that Kayla went with him and after he dropped off the other girls she started to cry. I guess the girls really wanted to go home because each wanted to do something different and couldn't agree on what to do. Put that with the fact that the past 2 nights they have been at each others house and you have a bad situation.

So now I have my sweet Kayla soo sad because her two friends abandond her on a night she had been looking forward to all week long. I am soo sad for her. I hope I can do something to make up for this dissapointment. I know aaron does not understand why this happened at all. I do unfortunatly having been a girl dealing with this stuff when I was young.

Being a girl is hard!!

5-HTP or Prozac

2008-06-25T06:03:00.000-07:00

So I have been on prozac for just over a year now and I am not sure if I should stick with that or go on to this 5-HTp stuff that heather turned me on too.

About two months or so ago Heather told me about 5-HTP which is a saratonin suppliment and works like prozac. So I stopped taking Prozac and started taking that. My hope was that it would work just the same and then I would not need to see my doctor every 3 months to get more. Well I tried it for over a month and I wasn'tsure about it because that time was a very stressful time for me so i wasn't sure if it was the 5-htp or just the unusuall amount of stress that made me wakky. So I stopped the HTP for some time and now have been back on prozac. I feel great but the stress has also been taken away too. So now I am faced with the dilema of going back to the doctor here soon to get more prozac or go back on HTp to try one more time now that things have calmed down. So I need an opinion on all of this.

For those that have not heard of HTp I have included some links that I used to research it before I started taking it.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/5-HTP

http://www.5htp.com/

http://www.vanderbilt.edu/AnS/psychology/health_psychology/5htp_myth.htm

Any advice you can give me would be helpful. Thank you

Sabrina

ok ok more of my cat lol

2008-06-23T14:04:00.000-07:00

OK so maybe I like my kitty a little too much. lol but how could I not when he is soo cute. Here are some way cute photos of him while sleeping. I just could not resist showing them off.

These are of him with kayla. I guess she is a nice bed. :)

Random Pics

2008-06-23T06:23:00.000-07:00

Here are some random pictures of the girls that I thought were way cute.

Maddy with her hair in pig tails. I love how it stick straight up. :)
Maddy onm her bike at the preschool. She was being a ham about showing me how she can ride.
Cherise with her cool sunglasses.

OK hit is funny because half the time Maddy will sneak in at night and climb in bed with Kayla. Well on htis morning maddy had actually pushed Kayla out of her own bed. (kayla is in the bright blanket on the floor) LOL

Kayla with her big sun glasses. :)

up at grandpas farm

2008-06-16T13:58:00.000-07:00

So we went up to my parents this last weekend and cherise decided at one point it would be fun to play with the wheel barrel. She looked like she was having soo much fun. LOL

Oliver and his best bud...pink teddy

2008-06-16T13:42:00.000-07:00

The p[ink teddy is cherises and no matter how many times Iput it back in the girls room Oliver still manages to pull it out to play. Its really cute to see him drag it around the houdse.

Oliver the tiger

2008-06-13T06:18:00.000-07:00

I love my ca soo much. He thinks he is a huge tiger lol. Plus he thinks Kayla is a cat too.

A few days ago he was zooming into the livingroom and I suprised him and he went SMACK into the sliding glass dorr. lol He is a dork.

our first trip to the pool

2008-06-12T15:57:00.000-07:00

Finally the weather is nice enough for us to get to the pool. Here are some pics of the girls enjoying the water.

Today

2008-06-06T05:56:00.000-07:00

Today is great. I feel alot better thank goodness. I am going to make it a great day. I can play with kids. I can be a model employee. Then I am going to go pay the rest of my bills off and go shopping. I get to enjoy my kids all day long and its great. And tomorrow I get to see my inlaws and celebrate Garrett graduating high school. I am soo excited to see everyone (except Traci this time but there will be other times babe!!). Ok so its a great day so I am going to go out and enjoy it!!!!

OMG Kayla is soo pretty!!

2008-06-04T06:42:00.000-07:00

These pictures were taken by a friend of mine at the spring Concert. They are soooo pretty. I think she is going to email me more soon.

ok so this is getting old I am sure

2008-06-04T06:06:00.000-07:00

I just do not know how to handle other peoples mood swings. So I am asking for your help.

So i told you about Jessie possibly making me director maybe. Well yesteray she starts talking about how we might have to closethe preschool because of what people are trying to do with our parking lot.

SO I need to learn how to not let things effect me to the point that I get mad at people. When I left work she seemed emotional but ok. then I came back to pick up my kids and tried to talk to her abotu the newsletter and i was waiting while she talked to a parent but she wouldn't even accnowledge me at all. So I just left them instead of trying to talk. SO all last night I was mad with her and vented to aaron but it did not help this time. SO what do I do????

OK off to work now. UGH SOOOO tired. :(

ok this is just between you and me

2008-06-02T06:32:00.000-07:00

So there is a chance that I will become the director at the preschool. Yea like wow!!!

After everything in the last 2 weeks Jessie and I were just chatting and she asked me how I would feel abotu becomeing the director. She may have found an advising position she willl most likely take if it is truely offered to her. THis would still be far off and lots of training involved but it would be a great experience. Not to mention the extra $500 a month I would make.

SO I just wanted to share this with you guys. I am really hoping this happens so I can have the experience and see what that is like. Well I will keep you updated on that.

2008-06-02T06:29:00.000-07:00

ok very blurry pics but I thought they were fun.

Cherise really wanted a picture with the cat.

The cat really did not want the picturewith her. lol

Spring concert

2008-05-31T10:39:00.001-07:00

These are pictures of Cherise and Maddy after they are all ready for their spring concert. Its a rock concert so I tried to make it look "cool". I added pink to both of thier do's but it is hard to see in these pics.

I am sure that I will get some pics of the concert to put on here later.

things are better now

2008-05-30T06:39:00.000-07:00

So I talked to Lynzie yesterday and I think we worked things out. I am very glad. I felt like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. Now if I coult get through Jessie and see what the heck is going on with her. SHe doesn't share I I feel that its because she may feel like she is suppost to have all the burdens becasue she is the boss. I may not beable to do alot to help but I am a good listener and I have strong shoulders if they are needed. SO I am going to see how today goes and try and make sure that I am open for Jessie.

conversation with my Mom

2008-05-27T06:48:00.000-07:00

Sabrina says:
i am worried abotu today but I am going to try and be the bigger person all day.....I am greatful that i only work till 2 today though
Mom says:
Keep a prayer in your heart and mind. It helps.
Sabrina says:
oh yea I am going to have to
Mom says:
Also keep singing a hymn in your head. That will help keep you calm and close to Heavenly Father.
Sabrina says:
yea
Sabrina says:
i think the thing I am most worried abotu mom is that I am not going to like working there after this
Sabrina says:
I thought I had authority over the girls and was an asset to jessie and I found out that yea I am an asset but its most likely cause I do a bunch of stuff for free

Mom says:
Well, my advice would be if things don't go the way you hope it will, would be to reevaluate YOUR feelings.
Sabrina says:
yea I guess
Mom says:
Yeah that does make a differance.but it really comes down to how YOU react to things and how YOU can either ignore things that bother you .or find out why it bothers you and if you can change your reaction to it.
Sabrina says:
yea thats true
Mom says:
Sometimes. What bothers us the most is our perseption of the things around us.
Sabrina says:
yea
Mom says:
If we examine our persecption and find that our reactions are not as they should be, then we can work on changeing them.
Mom says:
If we find that our reaction is correct for that situation then we have to try to chang the situation. if we can't then it is time to come up with a differant alturnative.
Sabrina says:
yea
Mom says:
In any relationship, marrage or work or friendship. It is only up to YOU how you will react in any given situation. YOU decide how to take a phrase or action. YOU decide how much something will affect you.
Sabrina says:
yea
Mom says:
I've found that a lot of my reactions have changed since I realized that MY reactions were out of line to what was going on. I also found that the closer to Heavenly Father I got, the more I was able to look into myself and change the things that were causing me to react with emotion instead of logic.
Mom says:
And trust me it hasn't been easy.
Sabrina says:
yea I am sure
Mom says:
but oh so worth it.and I still have a long way to go

Thank you mom. I really think my perspective is off on this situation. And with this advise I think I will beable to put it back in perspective and make changes according to that.

From Traci

2008-05-25T14:25:00.000-07:00

Today is International Weird-Ass People's Day.
Please send an encouraging message to a weird-ass friend.. Just as I've done.

I don't care if you lick windows,
Sniff toilet seats
Or occasionally crap yourself...

You hang in there Sunshine,
You're frigging special.

Oliver our new Kitten

2008-05-17T16:02:00.000-07:00

He is very gentle and very patient and seems to love tobe held alot of the time. He is crazy when it comes to play and loves his treats, laser pointer and cuddles. He is a great addition to our family.

He was born on March 8th so he is right now just over 2 months old.

cherise playing at the park

2008-05-14T15:08:00.000-07:00

SO I went to the park with the girls and cherise found a friend and built a camp fire with him. here are some pics of that.

maddy's birthday

2008-05-13T06:54:00.000-07:00

Maddy's 5th birthday was held at the preschool with a small group of kids. it was a pink pony party :)

Each of the kids got to paint a pony

HELP!!

2008-05-04T07:28:00.000-07:00

I changed my back ground as you can see but now i lost all of my people :( So as you come on here please leave your addy to your blog so I can ad you agian. Thank you!!

long over due but here they are......

2008-05-03T07:45:00.000-07:00

Cherise's 7th Birthday party pictures!!

She was having a Valentines themed birthday...and yet was wearing her pajamas....oh well :)

She had sooo many presents to open

Showing off her balloons

Can you tell Dad is paying attention lol
maddy enjoying chips

Emily tried to take her slippers. :) NOOOOOO!

Blow out the candles

MMMM Cake!

Its a crown

I got a dollar, I got a dollar, I got a dollar ha ha ha

kayla and emily taking the spot light

For real!! lol

Mmmmm food

A DUCK!!!

wow I can not believe it!

2008-04-19T06:08:00.001-07:00

Maddy turns 5 this next weekend. WOW She is getting to be soooo big. She is having a pink pony birthday with her friends and then a family birthday on the actual date of her birth. I am very excited for her.

I will try to get a recent pic of her on here real soon.

the many emotions of Sabrina

2008-04-02T16:55:00.000-07:00

Bored

Shocked

Silly

Angry

Confused

Frusterated

Thoughtful

Sleepy

Happy!!

I have kittens on the brain

2008-03-18T06:45:00.000-07:00

Spring is comming!!

2008-03-02T06:07:00.000-08:00

I did sooo much work yesterday. I decided to clean out our huge walk in closet and get rid of unnecisary junk. I got rid of like 7 or more garbage bags full of just stuff that was cluttering up our lives. In the mean time I discovered things that I had forgoten about. Like all my photo albums. And i found a bag of clothed that fit the girls. Don't know what that was doing in there. It feels great knowing that I am a little more organized and a little less cluttered.

feeling lonely, sad, vulnerable, down

2008-02-28T06:47:00.000-08:00

Man it seems like the only times I want to post on here lately is when I am sad and blue. Oh well if it helps what am I to do.

So I think my feelings may just tem from being overly tired and missing my meds yesterday and not having heard from my closest friends lately but who knows. I just have sooo much going on that it is hard to tack don on thing causeing me to feel this way. I need to be with good friends this weekend I think.

I want my kitten allready. I think it would make me feel better too. But it has to be born dang it. LOL oh well.

I am working on helping Cherise read. I think I finally got tired of hearing the teacher complain that i am not doing enough. UGH her teacher drives me crazy. but maybe she is right too and I do not do enough with Cherise. I don't know.

It is sooo hard to take care of 3 growing girls. Especially when you are struggling with getting help from your hubby. He is trying really hard to do better and in some ways he is and maybe I am not giving him enough credit. BUt i feel inadequite for them half the time. Heck I fell asleep last night at 5 and aaron got dinner for them. I felt terrible. I woke up 30 minutes later and had to get my own dinner and then go to a class at 6;30 and I think that is when I started to feel really bad because I left everything for aaron to do last night. But he did a great job. He got the girls in a bath, did the dishes, and got them all in bed. So he did awesome. So why do i get soooo upset about him and his gaming. UGHUGHGUBGUHGUBGHG.

new start

2008-02-24T09:36:00.000-08:00

I am realizing something recently. I may make mistakes and not do what I am suppost to in others eyes, but damnit I am a good person. I love helping others and playing with my children but I also love having a good time and for a small portion of time releive myself of my overwelming responsibility.

I got on Aaron yesterday because he isn't being very good at helping out around the house and with the kids. He is great at responding now when I ask him to help but now I am ready for him to recognize when I need the help and help before I lose it not after.

I have been under sooo much stress the past couple of weeks and the only people supporting me enough are Aaron and Jesse and Will and Amanda. Man I love these guys. It is great to have friends like Will and Amanda to hang out with and be myself with. I can be my occational bad parent or lazy and not get judged for it. And with Jesse she excepts that I have flaws and get cranky and need time to unwind.

Aaron has been really sweet since I got on him. He is trying to recognize when I do need the help. We are struggling to find each other as a couple, we need more intimacy and time alone but we are working on that.

Yesterday when we went to my in laws I was soo worried about the way I looked. I am tired of that. I finally just gave up and told myself that as long as I am cofortable it does not matter what I look like. I am who I am and I know that I strive to look my best at all times and i do not need to worry abotu what others think. And maybe if I keep telling myself that then I will start believing it more then I allready do.

Gary was really awesome yesterday. We came prepared to help pay for pizza and not have to rely on other for money and stuff but he said it was enough for him to knw that we paid for the gas to get up there. But dang Aaron dooes not know when to stop arguing with his dad lol. Its ok he is learning. Plus i am learning that i do not have to feel responsible for what he does. Its a slow process but its begining.

Madison is growing soo dang fast. Her imagination is HUGE. On the way home last night she entertained Aaron and i with her ramblings abotu her imaginary friend and her imaginary school and her general play. It was sooooooo cute.

WhenI go to church I feel like i have to be this perfect person and that everyone there is judging how i am and hopw my children are and are rating what kind of person I really am. I do not like that feeling and that is why it is harder and harder for me to take my family.

"The bad stuff is easier to believe. You ever notice that?"-Julia Roberts Pretty Woman

getting a kitten

2008-02-19T06:27:00.000-08:00

Yea I am doing it. i am yet agian entering the adventures of owning a Cat. I have a co-worker whos cat is having kittens soon and i get to pick one out when they come. Aaron is not too excited but I assured him that the cat was going to become an indoor outdoor cat so it would make it easier on him.

From the sounds of the mom this is they type of kitty we should be getting but I doot know. This one sure is CUTE!! But I am sooooo excited for this I have been wanting a kitty ever since we got rid of Jack-Jack.

HA HA HA HA

2008-02-16T10:02:00.000-08:00

Myspace Comments @ 123glitter.com

Atleast I have this going for mr...LOL

Cherise is sooo funny!

2008-02-16T09:53:00.000-08:00

ok so as many of you know Cherise is turning 7. She still suffers from all her same problems but is getting a touch better each day with them. BUt I wanted to talk abotu her thumv sucking and something funny she said.

Well she came home from school with a ring pop and said that it helped her to not suck her thumb and I joked heck if that works lets get you a binky. lol Well she took me serious and later asked if she could really get a binky and i told her NO. Then she said "but mom it will help keep my thumb out of my mouth". I told her that she needs to just stop sucking it. And she said "But my thumb wont listen to me" ROFLMAO Oh my she is a nut.

Idahoians.

2008-02-13T07:07:00.000-08:00

Crap!! Some of these fit me lol

FORGET REDNECKS; THIS IS WHAT JEFF FOXWORTHY HAD TO SAY ABOUT IDAHOANS !
If someone in a Home Depot store offers you assistance and they don't work there, you live in Idaho.
If you've worn shorts and a parka at the same time, you live in Idaho.
If you've had a lengthy telephone conversation with someone who dialed the wrong number, you live in Idaho.
If 'vacation' means going anywhere south of Salt Lake City for the weekend, you live in Idaho.
If you measure distance in hours, you live in Idaho.
If you know several people who have hit a deer more than once, you live in Idaho.
If you have switched from 'heat' to 'A/C' and back again in the same day, you live in Idaho.
If you install security lights on your house and garage but leave both unlocked, you live in Idaho.
If you can drive 75 mph through 2 feet of snow during a raging blizzard without flinching, you live in Idaho.
If you design your kid's Halloween costume to fit over a snowsuit, you live in Idaho.
If the speed limit on the highway is 55 mph -- you're going 80, and everyone is still passing you, you live in Idaho.
If driving is better in the winter because the potholes are filled with snow, you live in Idaho.
If you know all 4 seasons: almost winter, winter, still winter, and road construction, you live in Idaho.

If you find 10 degrees 'a little chilly' you live in Idaho.
If you actually understand these jokes and forward them to all your IDAHO friends, you live in Idaho.

2008-02-07T05:53:00.001-08:00

You Are Cookie Monster

Misunderstood as a primal monster, you're a true hedonist with a huge sweet tooth.

You are usually feeling: Hungry. Cookies are preferred, but you'll eat anything if cookies aren't around.

You are famous for: Your slightly crazy eyes and usual way of speaking

How you life your life: In the moment. "Me want COOKIE!"

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

Tramatic experience

2008-02-06T16:34:00.000-08:00

Ok so I get off work at 2 pm today and took maddy home so we could hang out till the girls get to the preschool by bus from school. I head out with maddy to go get the girls and when I hit the main road it was too busy to turn left toward the preschool so I turned right then turned into a gas station so I could just turn right agian and make it easier. Well as I was waiting to turn right I see a kid waling toward the van. Then I quickly realize that it was Kayla!!! WHAT?!?!?! Umm so i open the door for her and she gets in and she is crying. I ask her why she was here and not at the preschool and she said that she tried walking home. Umm no way!!! so I think about yelling at her but she is like frozen and crying. So for now I just tell her she will be fine and go pick up cherise. But I was totally freaked.

Kayla's school gets out at 3 and her bus gets to the preschool by 3:45. That was about the time that I saw her at the gas station. So for 45 minutes my daughter wandered around Moscow trying to make it home or to the preschool. OOOOMMMMGGGGGG!!! I am totally shaking at the ideas that come into my head of what could have happened.

but I am sooo glad that i found her and that i was guided to go the way i did. I told her that that was bad but she was safe now. I also told her what could have happened if I had not found her. and obviously told her that we should not try that agian. PLus I had to call the school and tell them abotu it. The principal was freaked by it too. He is going ot have a talk to kayla tomorrow.

it makes me think of this poem:

Footprints

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed He was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky flashed scenes from His life. For each scene He noticed two sets of footprints in the sand. One belonging to Him and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of His life flashed before Him, He looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of His life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of His life.

This really bothered Him and He questioned the LORD about it. LORD you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me.

The LORD replied, my precious, precious child, I Love you and I would never leave you! During your times of trial and suffering when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.

Carolyn Carty, 1963

Straight all the time now

2008-02-06T15:30:00.000-08:00

no this does not refer to my sexual orientation all though that is correct for that too lol. I am refering to my hair. I got it cut a little while ago and I HATE it!!. Or atleast I hate it curly. I thought that I would get nice cute curls but NO. Iget some wave in the front and cute curls in the back UGH!!. SO I am now straightening it every day. Its kind of a pain but with it being soo short it does not take as long and looks way better. BUt I just have to say that HAIRSPAY is my new best friend lol.

2008-02-05T15:17:00.001-08:00

We do not do this at our preschool but I thought this was funny.

Super bowl baby!!!

2008-02-03T14:19:00.000-08:00

So we are hanging out with our friends, eatting crap food, playing Wii, and now we re watching the pre-game. Go Paula!!! Whoo hoo!! We will be routing for the paatriats but honestly I do not care. I'm just here for the fun, food, and drinks. LOL

Snow day agian. lol

2008-02-01T06:33:00.001-08:00

I thought this pic was way cute

ugh!!! SSNNOOWW

2008-01-31T06:46:00.000-08:00

I am sooo tired of the snow. They closed he schools her AGIAN!! When will it end. They are saying that it has not been this bad since 1968. But that does not make it easier. Plus jesse keeps telling me to keep the preschool open unless we loss power. Well I can honestly say with the road conditions and it actualy snowing right now I do NOT want ot go open the school. ohh well hopefully i do not get stuck agian.

Traci, This is to answer the many questions you had about my hair lol

2008-01-29T06:55:00.000-08:00

ok so when I cut it the first time I went to the school and I cot a senior girl to cut it for me and she was a bit nervous because my hair was soooo long but I reasured her that it grows fast so if I do not like it I won't come after her. lol Yes it felt realy good to have it shorter but I did not like my layers so I tried one day to sut them myself and butched it. SO then I had to go to Fantastic Sams and get it fixed and it ended up much shorter then I wanted. Then I cried. But I know it will grow out agian so I keep trying to find new ways to do it so I don't scream about it. :)

About the color...I did dye it a red color and that is in the picture. It was just an over the counter dye. But as of right this moment it is not that color cause it grew out too fast so I had the bad roots showing. So agian i dyed it but just a light brown. Even with the new dye job though ther is still a good amount of the red in it.

Hope that answers your questions.

2008-01-28T09:42:00.000-08:00

Here is a recent pic of me with my short hair. It is not the best becasue it was taken at the end of my work day but its ok.

its comming!!

2008-01-28T09:36:00.000-08:00

Wow I pulled out the decorations and got them all up. Cherise is soooo excited for this holiday. I am not really sure why but she is. BUt my house looks like love so thats pretty cool.